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Mistakes
Falling short
Forgetting
Not doing the right thing at the right time
Imperfect
Ineffective
Lacking focus
Inhale.
Chest crushing lungs.
Trust being pushed.
Exhale.
Chest releasing its grip, but still holding on ever so slightly.
Trust standing at the edge of a cliff.
People think of beauty as looks,
which will always be temporary.
You see her from the outer view and say she is beautiful looks-wise,
which she is,
but you do not see the beautiful side of her that I do.
My relationship with my mother
Has been a series of trust falls
And she's never once caught me
.
But I keep leaning backwards
And hating myself
When I inevitably hit the ground
.
looking into your eyes, oh so blue
i couldn’t help but fall for you
but i should’ve trusted my gut with you
especially after the last two
Holla good-sister
Aye good-brother
I'm always thy brother
I thank thee, O pious!
Holla dear brother
Aye dear sister
I await thee
Good heavens thou art a sinner!
Friday night, first week of May, you brought me here like a child. Hungry for new experiences. A new world. Scared that that world might not accept him as he is. Nervous.That night we drank, we danced, we laughed, and we kissed….
Love is something that always grows
But it's very sensitive you have to be very apprehensive of what steps you take.
It takes seconds to break and years to make.
You're not supposed to love me.
I’m supposed to relive the past that has taught me to be wary of love that cares about me.
Under the mask is a villain
who solemnly swears he’s the hero
Under the mask is a wolf
wrapped in sheep’s clothing
Under the mask is a snake
i like the way you touch me
when you run your fingertips across my back
down my spine
i like when you wrap your arms around me
pulling me closer even when closer isn't possible
i like it when you're goofy
It's weird
the concept of time
and life
and love
all unraveling in my head
being young
and confused
it's weird
a year later i've taken a full circle
and found myself
Why is it that we always want what we don't have?
Why is it that what is avilable to us is never good enough?
Maybe we are a society of people who fixate too much on chaning everything,
Its Feb 25th, 2021
I starting to see that people will enter my life and leave
I noticed that when I open up to people they seem to think they know me
My mind never seems to be calm
I feel as if my mind is always on fight or flight mode
as if there is never a second of peace
the truama held within is purly sad
I’m honest and genuine when I declare my love for my King.
I love you more than I have ever loved another, you make my soul sing.
This love hit different, deeper, a real soul connection type of thing.
Keep your ears open, listen to your first mind.
9 times out of 10 you'll be right everytime.
There's no purpose in starting a fight about what's wrong or right.
Like always, the truth will always find it's way to the light.
How, why, what, is this real, for real.
This wasnt apart of the deal.
For you I would rob, steal, even kill at will.
I want to get off this ride, going in circles like a ferris wheel.
Every part of me desires to be your lover and best friend.
But how can I be your lover when your actions speak “my enemy”, not “friend to me.”
One of the most important things that I have been told is to believe in your journey even when no one else can,
And it took me a long time to realize that no one else has to believe in you if you are your own biggest fan.
There I saw this nervous butterfly
Searching for a secure place to land
To calm her tiring pair of colourful wings
But scared and afraid to trust strangers
Having disowned by her own little group
DREAM RHYME
Thinking of her
Out of the blue
Wondering where she is
What she's about to do ....
I stop my work
drop my pen
My mind wanders to a time when ....
MY NATURAL HIGH
She's my natural high
My red carpet ride
To another world
Alone with me ....
The wind
that ruffles her hair
And the rain
NIGHT WALK
I want to walk with you at night.
Where you walk alone in the morning light.
When the rising sun pushes away the moon.
Where you walk six hours before noon ....
LIKE A SUMMER BREEZE
Walking with a cane
You came into my lane.
Jumbled my ways
My nights became days.
I’ve felt this breeze before
I thought. For sure!
REAR VIEW
I think of my past.
Because you are here at last. It becomes clearerIn life’s rear view mirror ....
OUT OF TOUCH
You're feeling bad
Out of touch .... aren't you girl?
Life has taken you on a whirl
Don't let it steal your joy
You're not in anyone's employ....
BONNIE and CLYDE
The clock passed the covid curfew
And I'm still with you.
On stolen time
Trying to see new love rhyme.
We are Bonnie and Clyde
Lovers on the hide.
ON A SWING
In the morning when the sun clicks on and she gives a sighAt the last evening star dancing in the pale blue skyThat's when I dream
Of her and me
On a swing....
LADY DAY
Let’s give all to this flower of ours....We’ve been alive without love for too many hours....With others but always alone....With some sun
VULNERABILITY
It’s a marvelous sight
to open the curtain
and give the stage
to vulnerability
with her sweet rage
she's the sister of love
so free
ARTS GARAGE
I loved each moment
At Arts Garage
A blues music barrage
Then walking the street at large...
Your touch
Your smile
And for a little while
BEING MY REAL
What matters now is how I feel
and being my real.....
I am drifting on my boat and you're on shore
Waving to me.. shouting.. "give me more"
IT FLOWS THROUGH ME
The rising sun kisses the day
The breeze flows to me
It has something to say ....
It ruffles my hair
I wonder what is to be
What we will discover
Gypsy Queen. On me leanBe my Gypsy Lover....
The song you sing Makes love swing
So play away
To my heart each day
And be my Gypsy lover....
To the wind I will sing:
TABLE 26
I must sayYou were lovely today
With laughter of fun
I long the return of your sun
And to play
With Your smile of wonder
And dance with you
Untill dawn at six
EVERY MOVE
I’m free to love. Let me be free. A free lover. To All of you.
If you need me Call my name. If you want me You can do the same.
With me to stay
If you may
Ever y day.
I'd stick to my call
I would wait and l...look out for your tender call
For a promise not known to fail, with all, my all.
you did nothing wrong, you’re a good person
but you’re hurt, and i figured that out by myself
i know you’re afraid to open up
i know you’re afraid to let down your walls
and let someone in
So Who Do You … “ TRUST “ … ?!?
Do You Trust YOU To Make SMART Moves ...
And Pick WISELY In Who You Choose To Be WIFEY' ... ?!?
You know the value of the word "love"
You say everything you feel
You are my calmness,
My strength
I trust you more every time
Without you I would be nothing
You taught me how to be happy
Imagine an Angel
That can never fly
That has always wanted to
But could never touch the sky
For her wings are broken
And burned to dust
So WHO Do You ... " Trust " ... ???
And Who Are Your Mates ... ???
Cos' People These Days ...
MOSTLY Are Two Faced ... !!!
They Talk With You ...
Like Everything's COOL ...
A Short Psalm
The Lord is with me;
I shall never go astray from his path,
Which is laid out before me, never ceasing
Even to realms of glory, so far from
You're lying in bed.
Are you in bed or are you lying?
I cant figure it out.
I'm tired of trying
I'm walking through barriers.
One after the other.
Sometimes it breaks me.
But i turn to the Father.
Scream out His name.
As my breath leaves my lips.
Lord I needs help!
As I fall to the pit.
Snakes are all around me.
And, it becomes harder to know who to trust.
I want a friend, but are you just using me?
You say you'll change for me and you are.
i still don't consider myself a poet
no matter how many words that fall from the sky that aid me in meshing the feelings i feel
can protect me from the world
opinions will still eat away at my mind
Keep your head up, don't get fed up.
Choose your roads wisely, you might like where you end up.
Let your thoughts manifest into a physical form.
Where you dreams can ascend, and be reborn.
He's a stable smithyThinks his genius words are pithyAs he pounds, pounds, poundsInto the night.Swings his big word-hammerNever minding lies and grammarCuz he's gotta, gotta, gotta
Yes, I regret
The scornful dissipation
Of my salad days
When I was strong,
Believe me,
They didn’t last too long,
Believe me,
They didn’t last too long.
Yes, I regret
1,000 friends in a life time you could make.
Unfortunately; most will turn out fake.
Only a few will prove themselves true.
As you do them, they care about you.
What is love?
What is trust?
What is pain?
What if love is trust, and trust is pain.
In order to love , you have to trust.
Trust that it is love and not lust.
Even when I think it'll be a rainy day,
I watch my blue skys fade away from grey.
Sunflowers dance all around,
Under the clouds I'll never be found.
I love my little flower garden,
Bloom. Life begins to zoom.
Growing up too soon.
Been six years in school.
Not my first crush but closest
to first love.
Went through things no kid ever should've.
Years of off and on revealed to be
Roses are red
Violets are blue,
I was afraid to talk about sex with you.
I didn't know what to say,
I didn't know how
Please me why this is such hell.
Talking with trust
This is an ode to the boys who have hurt me.
I will not talk about the ones who came before the ninth grade,
A gifted talent no one's found
Watching a TV with no sound
Eating chips that crack too loud
No verbal contact, I'm too profound
To hide behind your lies and hold truth
You're subtle but I have no proof
Wild, crazy beast;
they say he cannot be tamed.
Unpredictable as the rising tides,
impulsive as the wind...
I see myself in him.
I'm scared
of letting go of my
grandiosity.
self-assurance
moves me
impetuously.
Imagination flies me off
the ground.
status puffs me up with fluff.
They say that
Distance
Makes the heart grow fonder
But I was fond enough
When we walked
Alongside one another
All this time I’ve livedin another reality.All I did was giveand I was happy.
My reality is notwhat you would expect.But I wasn’t taught to not let it affect.
Why is it so difficult to trust You with my life?
To hand over the keys, to physically pry my tight fingers
Away from the controls midflight.
You, knowing end from the beginning, knowing which way the wind will blow,
shivers down my spine
at the thought of you leavin' me behind
after all that we have been through
you made me think it was always gonna be me and you
now, as you head for the door
A girl online I've never met is stalking me
Asking where I live
Asking me how old I am
When she texts me, "I love you" I laugh
That's why I made sure she'd never meet me
Because, unknown to her...
The Question
September 10, 2018 ~ Monday
I came to get help
Not to get hurt
And every time you make a move
Captain, surely they cannot expect me to lead.
Surely there will be instructions left for me.
This ocean is vast and will swallow you whole
surely a child isn’t meant to battle it alone.
Allow me to express my deepest gratitude
In words deep from in my soul
You are always there when I wake up
And the first one to answer when I call
You taught me how to open my heart
Do you hear the music,
That once did beat from within
The constant thump of the unsettled.
I trusted you
but you broke it
I gave my all to you
and you accepted it
yet you let it all crumble like it was nothing
its confusing
but the trust was lost
Ikaw at ako, paano ko ba ito sisimulang isasalaysay?
Sa yugto ba na kung saan tayong dalawa ay nagmamahalan?
Sa yugto ba na kung saan may lamat ng namagitan?
I'm not going to lie.
Sometimes adults underestimate me.
I'm not going to brag,
But I'd like to think that I'm a little more mature than my peers.
Yet I'm always told that I "would never understand."
Rejection. It hurts like a bitch. But sometimes rejection provides a greater picture to one's head. Rejection just makes me feel like I'm not worth love. Or happiness. Or even affection. And it's not the person who rejected me that hurts...
As I make my journey
goals ahead, pushing through,
I take the time to reflect,
I take the time to make some sense
of all that I have become.
What has brought me here
That’s it. Enough is enough. Every single day I work my butt off to try and make a difference To try and do something with my life. But it’s hard. And today I can’t be bothered. Today I feel like it’s all a big fat waste of time. Like it’s not wor
Light outside snapped and dipped
around the old stone
and the
clipped clean manicured lawn.
i had to look up to meet your wild hurt gaze
your fury at the top of the staircase
above me
I know...
That this is something we don't like to hear.
But the way we survived has made only one thing clear.
We hate to be betrayed...
But we never own up to the truth.
You broke my trust
Now you've lost me
I won't come back
I won't call
I tried
And you lost me
We won't talk
We won't be friends
You won't be anything to me
You lost me
Your heartbeat is my own.
You smile, I smile.
You dream, I dream.
You breathe, I sigh.
Love me. Hold me. Trust me now.
I'm cold. Warm me.
You dream, I dream.
You smile, I smile.
Press against my begging blossom,
Reaching for
Thy tender kiss.
As I quiver beneath your bosom,
Fill my womanhood
With bliss.
For I trust you with such bounty,
Take away
Thank you.
Thank you for every second, every day, every year.
Thank you for holding me
While I cry,
And smiling at me
While I laugh.
Thank you for your time, your trust, your affection,
Dear Friend,
Never could I have pictured,
We would be here today
With everything and nothing figured
Not black or white, just gray.
Five years ago, we had everything,
Dear Dad, Your sins have been forgiven by my God above. For the sins you’ve made and for the hurt that you have done to the child you say you love. For every time you’ve raised your hand to strike me down.
You can either trick her into thinking your special
Or
You can threaten to leave her
Which one would you rather kill her with?
His love is like a fire bright an warm;
It hugs you like a blanket but can burn.
My love for him falls outside of the norm,
It's new and growing like the summer fern.
Beware! Do not get too close to the fire,
takes lifetime
to get there,
sacrificing unstable
illusions for
concrete truths,
waiting for that
day to
A Letter to an Absent Father
Dear father- or rather to the man
Who simply donated DNA.
I'm not sure if I can call you "Dad"
Anymore because a father is
Sometimes it’s better to keep a secret,
then to tell someone
Because what hurts the most is,
Take the child
Break the child
Then fix her up with glue.
Her parts will heal
But she won't feel
She doesn't have a clue.
Take the child
Make the child
Then wash her clean of shame.
Hearts are very delicate
They can be torn apart
It is important who you give it to
For they could use it to only make you look like a fool
I find joy walking in the rain with you.
The wind brings a biting chill
And the water droplets sink into my clothes.
The sky is a flat, endless gray.
“No one loves you like I do”
The words that once seemed lovely
Burrow into the crevices of my mind
Right next to “you’re not good enough” and “you’ll never achieve anything”
“No one loves you like I do”
My darling,
I know you're scared
of this love in which we’re falling.
“I love you” used to be a curse
shackling you to another
Healthy love can be hard to find but when it is, it’s a special kind.
Loving fires bring no pain just warmth and light through pouring rain.
Not always will we walk in step but each stride should echo a promise kept
I drank him in like the fifth bottle of beer.
Swallowing the toxic liquid, I relived the fear.
It is one o’clock in the morning,
I received a text saying,
“Baby, I’m home from work. Show me your body. I love you.”
Because I love you
I have no fear
To be me.
No matter how far I wander,
I have a place to be.
You and me
Those who say that love is blind
have never seen the way that your eyes sparkle
when Margaret crawls into your lap
and starts to purr.
It is an honor to be so trusted
by an animal with so little trust to give
Because I love you…
I love you
These are three words and one feeling
That we agree on enthusiastically
Trees take time to grow
Love takes time to grow
Cannot be forced into something it is not or manipulated into moving faster than it is able
I thought I was special when he talked to me.
Our eight year age difference intrigued me.
Laughter and sweet small talk consumed our weeks.
His vast charisma and poise decived me.
Paper hearts and euphoric sighs.
"IT'S BECAUSE I LOVE YOU."
Skipping class and instantaneous lies.
"IT'S BECAUSE I LOVE YOU."
I love the way you're eyes soak up the morning sun.
I adore you're passion for adventure and reckless fun.
The way the moonlight sends glimmer through your hair.
I notice because I love you. I notice because I care.
I love you because you love me
Me, a broken person who cannot trust
Trust you, can I?
I love you becuase you respect me
Me, a person who has been treated like an object to society.
Worries worries worries
Who is he with?
Why didn’t he tell me where he was going?
Is he lying to me?
Dear Father,
Thank you for being my fatherBecause fathers should provide
They should hold your hand and want to danceAnd be present in your life
Despite the eloquence ofMy words;My actionsShowcase merciless intent
My actionsSeem to display meAs selfishAs ifI don’t love you
BUT YOU ARE WRONG
There can only be one opinion, right?
“Because I love you.”
These are the precious words:
Full of hope, promises, and happiness,
A healthy relationship means we are both happy in this.
It’s not a burden.
It’s amazing, It’s wanted.
The downs are worth it because they build up the relationship.
I often reminisce
Not on the times we've kissed
But when I held you on the stairs
Overwhelmed with all your cares
Words you say
Don't make my day
They move my world
They change my way
The day before yesterday
You said you were with friends.
The day before yesterday
I belived you.
Yesterday
You said I was beautiful.
Yesterday
I apprecitated your honesty.
Love.
Contains compassion,
Shows you care.
In times of need,
You’ll be there.
It needs to have trust,
To be relied on.
Believed in you like a religion But too bad people change every season Did things for you, some hasn't even been mentioned.And held you down, to now from the beginning.Dreaming about mansions and cooking breakfast in the kitchen. No one was for yo
Love isn't always easy,
Challenges may come your way.
But as long as you hold hand in hand,
You will live to see another day.
Everything is up to you,
You have your pen to write.
Two people.
Two very different people suddenly meet.
One and the other see each other and finally make a conversation.
It goes W E L L
at least for one
I only want the best for you
For you to be at ease
Call me in the midnight hour
Or when you just need
Someone to talk to,
To love or to hold
Clutch one end of the phone
I'll clutch mine
Promises linked by pinkies and sealed with a kiss are never made to be broken: Rule number one in how to date me. Trust, trust, trust: trust in you, trust in me, trust in us -- the power one simple word shares. But love
Because I love you
I tell you my darkest truth
You and me, sitting on a booth
The lights are out
I lean in close
Your smell an intoxicating dose
It gives me the courage
Until you look away
I USED TO FEEL INCOMPLETE WITHOUT YOUR LOVE
LIKE THE DAY IS INCOMPLETE WITHOUT A SUNSHINE
I USED TO FEEL WORTHLESS WITHOUT YOUR CARE
LIKE THE NIGHT IS WITHOUT THE MOON
BUT THEN LOVE FELL ON ME,
I USED TO FEEL INCOMPLETE
WITHOUT YOUR LOVE
LIKE THE DAY IS INCOMPLETE
WITHOUT A SUNSHINE
I USED TO FEEL WORTHLESS
Liar
I have one for him and for her
I have one for them and for us
I have one for you and for me
The lies they come
The lies they go
From here and there
They appear
A subject in a million stories /The catalyst to a thousand wars /A man and a woman deep in love /But I don't call that love. /Love is not at first sight /Lust is /Love is not a shot through the heart /Desire is /Love is not on and off /Not hot a
Because I love you...
I see no flaws. I see perfection.
A true gift made from heaven.
The way you smile, how the corners of your lips begin to wrinkle.
A heart is as big as you want it to be
Say it again?
A heart is as big as you let it grow like wool on a sheep.
Hearts are fragile and can't prepare theirselves.
Mostly, it's the brain doing the work.
You held me when the weight of the world was too much
And combed the hair out of my swollen eyes filled with tears
You left chocolates in my locker
She doesn't know.
She's completely clueless.
If she reaches that low,
She'll say, "screw this."
What phrase can I say though?
I can't tell her my view.
She'll throw a fit.
That is my cue.
You,
You're the one I love
I don't run behind you
Yet my heart hangs on to every word you say
I lay and I lay as I think of all the time we spend together
Our hearts beat as one.
You don’t judge me for my flaws, you take them into appreciation and pause
It may be the way you look at me or the way you make me feel
But inside I’m certain that you help me heal.
It is because of this,
I guess you could say
that I'm a girl in love.
No?
I think so anyhow.
My heart definitely does
when it leaps as you walk in the room
My eyes think so too
becaus they always seem to seek you out.
First.....you don't want it to end
Then realize, in those eyes, what you
See is pretend
And you believed you were friends
Till she leaves you again
You beg and plead, and say she's all
You need
It was the words of the broken
that spoke through me, fast &
rapid - a tidal wave rushing through
my shredded memories of her weathered face
lying on that broken bed.
All alone.
Deep, Dark, Consuming,
Out of reach to others.
Thinking, searching, not finding,
the answers that are needed.
There is only one place,
trustworthy, safe, and unknown.
Your mind is yours,
To live,
To die.
Everybody always asks 'why?'
But it's a fact of life.
It's all the same.
It's how I feel when
Playing the game.
To love,
To hate.
Because I love you...
words that can easily change
from endearing to manipulative.
I want full access to your social media,
because I love you
Bail on your friends and social life for me,
Dipping my fingers into your affection,
It tastes like sweetened condensed milk -
The way you hold me when I'm trapped in the dark,
Your company such a welcome confection.
Your eyes drew me in.
Your personality made me stay.
Last time I was hurt,
But something about you was different.
Because I love you,
I think about you all the time.
Because I love you,
You make me try to rhyme.
Because I love you,
I tend to have my worries, my jealousies, my fears, my doubts,
Him and Her.
You shouldn't fix what's not broken,
unless your in denial,
but I don't want to admit,
I missed your call earlier, and it was okay.
You didn't repeatively call, to "make sure I was OK"
I was busy doing homework, and you caught me off guard with "I understand"
Dear grandmother,
Promise
I will never get tired of loving
Every petal and thorn of
Your worn out body.
Healthy relationships are hard.
They are wild, crazy, unrelenting forces of nature.
Built, not bought- they are the very foundation of trust and loyalty.
#BecauseILoveYou
I control who you see and what you wear, because I love you
I spend more time on my phone than spending time with you, because I love you
I flirt with other people behind your back, because I love you
Coasting down the mountain side
Silent on this snake-like ride
Slippery roads make
For tretchorous trails
- Looks like someone
Missed the rail. -
Panic attack
Doing all of these things
becuase I love you...
Listening and valuing your opinions
because I love you,
Respecting and loyalty to you
because I love you,
Making you feel important and wanted
Hold me and never let go.
Tell me you love me.
Whisper those three words in my ear even when Im sleeping, "I love you"
and Ill say them back to you in my dreams.
A bridge among barricades
A bird among bears
Love is free, love is peace
Trust from a tired heart
Energy from an exhausted mind
Love connects, love supports
I Will.
I will lift you from the ground when you fall,
Be at your side with even just one call,
I am an ocean
I am rough and wild and relentless
Brutal
You do not treat me as if I am
Delicate
Sea foam spun by the quells of love
You look at me
It’s the moment you look at them.
Every single time your eyes meet,
You know in your heart, there,
that’s were you want to be.
A family that was never been together,
Everything was so other favor,Anger, sadness and pain altogether,In the heart of a child whom never felt it before.
-Open My Heart-
Give me lifeWake me up in the morning,Kiss me at the crack of dawn and tell me that you love me.Show me that your expectations can exceed my expectancy.
When I said hello, I really meant"Can I trust you?"When I said let's talk politics, I really meant"Let's test you."When I
She was a one of a kind.
With a tail for legs,
Princess Ariel never thought she'd find,
A Prince Charming who loved who she really was.
Until she did, or so she thought.
Again the man called Bluebeard seeked a wife-
Color so blue it was not worth his gold.
But to a young maiden, this fear was contrived,
Thus they wed and her chastity sold.
Created for relationship - that's what they say.
Severely precious.
Always enough.
Captivating.
Longed for.
Loved.
Fought for.
Full of potential.
Bought at the highest price.
I don’t talk a lot At first And I hope that that’s okay But once I know your warmth And feel safe letting words escape When I know they and I don’t annoy you Then I’ll tell you
"The mind is a box
And truth its key,
A music box full of
Unique melodies.
It plays for those
Who wish to hear,
Its sorrows and woes
Of many a year.
You may also chance
In the coldest Winter
you were the coat that kept me warm
Made from many patches
all my favorite colours
I trust you like the fire
treading through snow storms
With your embrace comes wisdom
Ya nigga played you but you blamin' bitches,
throwin the blame because you know he was wit us
fuckin' other females but sayin he love you,
the reason you take him back because he admit that he does it
Her: Felt like I couldn't breathe when I saw you for the hundredth time, told myself I'd be just fine when we connected eyes in class a while past nine Excited to be heartbroken once again, hated knowing it could only be provoked by her or him, wh
It’s fragile
Breakable
Something that shatters
Shatters with a touch
A word
A thought
Doubt
Self-doubt
It eats at it
Like a cat
Plays with its food
Like tiny voices
You trust me, don’t you? I love you.
You whispered so sweetly, I believed you, I believed you could free me from my cage.
I loved you, I trusted you.
Our bound was unreliably new
I'm three years old and I can't speak
about the things my mama does
I caught her once
She is always there for me when I need her the most,
She always gives me what I need, and to her I toast.
What you did to me, ya she already knows,
So be prepared for the show.
Please forgive me for what I have done,
This weight on my chest weighs a ton.
The life I have I fearfully regret,
But what I've done I'll never forget.
My arms are scarred here and there,
That soft, kind emotion is what I long for.
That thing that is so precious not everyone can have.
I yearn for that feeling one day,
I desire that feeling.
That feeling I know is warm and gentle.
Picture
Always having that crunching feeling throughout my soul.
Keep on worrying what’s going on with me. I don’t feel whole.
Why am I always jumping towards the end?!
What we were then is not what we are now
For changes were made, that were good and bad.
What I don’t understand is exactly how
dreams. path. future. past
i find these things don't always last
pain. promise. people. places
surrounded by unfamiler faces
another world, oh God's heaven
different eyes, didn't feel i could win
Lifting my eyes to the sky above me,
I enjoyed one last glimpse of the light.
And as I prepared my heart, in came the clouds of darkness
To surround me in a seemingly endless night.
Trust.
Must be earned!
Must be showed!
Must be given!
Chances are taken.
Trust is Proven.
Trust is Kept.
Connection forms.
Bonds Last!
FOREVER,
Never Broken!
Love can transform.
Trust can create or break.
Friends can be fake.
She was a friend
and now a foe.
The lies, the plays.
It was a joke to spread my woes.
Psycho she was-
Love can transform.
Trust can create or break.
Friends can be fake.
She was a friend
and now a foe.
The lies, the plays.
It was a joke to spread my woes.
Psycho she was-
I am a Man of God.
I ask myself, "Are you living like a Man of God?"
Humph...
Something is just not right...
Why are these things happening to me?
Why am I hearing these voices?
Get away fear!
As my life goes on & my days get shorter , I start to realize that the people I met in my past were not meant to be in my future. I excogitate on this topic heavily because I think of it as a sign of the old me , morphing into a bigger & b
As things begin to slip,
They drip around the sides
And glide into places almost forgotten.
The grand piano breaks
The blood, sweat and tears she lay,
as she smiles from day to day.
Sweet as flowers of a rose,
Bitter than a lemon that grows.
Clear as the blue skies and birds that flew,
but little did she knew.
Change
It enveloped me in its deep stronghold
Waves crashed over me
As rain hurled down its fists
College-the magnitude
Wave to wave- thought to thought
Loss of a friend- in the embrace of angels
My battles are not won
through soldiers.
I, rather, battle what
cannot be seen.
The war is ugly, brutal.
A glass of the reddest wine one can find,
a familiar face sitting across from you,
yet it is one that you cannot define.
Who could it be or what could it be?
Does it have the capability to see?
One two, down up
And there she goes
She flies high
Smiles bright
Two, three, four
One two and down
Feet back on the ground
We cheer
A pause for the boys
Mutual understandings that flow together,
Unparalleled feeling of belonging,
And the unending thrill of adventure
Are the abundant fruits to friendship’s calling.
If I am lost in a storm of doubts or a cloud of fear, call Lindsey.
If I cannot find the will to go on, get Maggie.
If I am in need of light or laughter, text Isabelle or Michelle.
When we started off, I was all too worried.
Hoping your son would grow to like me and that you would be comfortable with a new man in your lives.
I don't promise insight, so take this vulnerability
There's something ugly in mistakes and I am going to let them see
on purpose. They're nervous for
bad anecdotal jokes and blank notes, rote comfort buy the hour.
trigger touch
to end a life
throw a punch
or grab a knife
but why tell me why?
is it so you feel alive?
or is it because you hate goodbyes?
well look me, look into my eyes
Trust is like a piece of glass
Shiny and new with class
May be fragile
And could cause a battle
Once Cracked,
It can never again be exact
When I woke up this morning
I asked myself "What is life about?"
I found the answer in my room.
..the fan said "Be cool."
The roof said "Aim high."
The window said "See the world!"
I give my love my everything:
The nooks and crannies of my soul.
His mask then fell, unveiled a liar,
Spilled every secret: none untold.
Friends come, they go, all while they know
In that moment, I knew you understood me.
In that moment, I knew you knew my pain.
In that moment, I knew you saw how much I loved you...
Because that's how much you were loving someone else.
For Cindy
She is the mysterious mesmerizing moon
Sitting silently in sorrowful solitude
She is encased in darkness
I know not of trust.
I know of abiding nouns and pronouns.
All the faces and houses and names
That perpetually changed
Stripped the days for play out from under the feet of innocence.
Part One:I am a destroyerDestroy herDestroy himDestroy them
Destroyer of worlds of multifarious dimensions.
You've been my sun, throughout the darkness given, Just like Jesus I've finally arisen, I need to let the girl of my dreams out of this prison. She's Incarcerated due to the lack of trust,Please listen, because you and I, that's a must. I know my
People are always getting ready for tomorrow,
But tomorrow never gets ready for them.
In fact, it doesn't even know they are there.
They choose and anxiety -
Or rather,
An anxiety chooses them -
Emotions, aren’t toys,
but if you put them into some of the wrong hands
they can be played with.
That’s why you gotta keep your eyes open and be mindful that man
will fail you every time.
You murdered me with whisperings
of trusted secrets now in fling.
Our trust you tore with rampant greed
and flaunted my foolish empathy
that marked you as my everything.
Throughout our childhoods,
we’re taught to trust in the things shoved down our throats by the tv screens,
We don’t know they're lies of course,
It’s all so real to us, it’s all we know,
You’re my best friend-
what should have been a modest prank turned into a sick plan
that left me squandering energy for your own entertainment.
You played me like a puppet
Her tears fell down her face
As she let her crown fall
He picked her up slowly
Knowing she no longer trusted him
He kept repeating sorry
But all she felt was the vibration of his lies
Secrets are spread all around
Lies are told to you and me
Hate blinds those who cannot see
The truth that is spoken is not believed
One person you can trust
Is me
Seeing my life through a different set of eyes
As of yesterday, a true friend reminded me of my prize
In every way, I’ve dealt with remembering wondering why
How do you expect a young girl to trust you when you have broken that trust?
How do you expect me to trust you after you left?
Why do the people who hurt you, tell you to trust them?
I've tried evading the situation
but I have bled for too long
and I can no longer be strong
My heart has called for a confrontation.
The betrayal is quite tiresome
I'm afraid to open up.
To give someone the chance to hurt,
My heart of glass, so easy to shatter,
Because of all that I've seen, and heard
Although it should not matter.
I play my twisted game,
I never could live in a world with no trust. Where handshakes and smiles all tarnish to rust. When waking up early seems like the right thing to do, and backhanded comments come natural as dew.
There is a fire inside all of us.
It starts off as a spark, then it connects with your soul and ERUPTS
Let's go make some of our wildest dreams come true
Not believing you can do it, surely makes a fool out of you.
I will believe in you but you should believe in yourself more
War. Violence. Hate.
Anger. Rage. Hurt.
Our world has been destroyed.
People are toyed.
Where is the love?
Who disturbed the peace?
Evil is dancing.
The Devil is grinning.
She is the voice who calms the waters within me. The voice who soothes the waves that are building up to that disastrous tsunami, ready to destroy anything or anyone in my path.
They say you're not alone,
But is that really true?
When you think about it,
Nobody will believe in you,
Unless you believe in yourself.
People will let you down,
People are not to be trusted.
why do I keep trying,
why do you want me fighting.
I am stressed
with myself.
Why do you want me here?
are you really in fear?
She loves subliminal.
If only your conscious could grasp her heart.
I hold her, we dance beyond the horizon.
Subliminally I tell her to have little faith in me.
It’s not much but she is fair.
This isn't me
I am out here
I am not here
This body
I don't know
Whose it is
He came in daylight
He came as a friend
He came as a game
That I didn't know
All I need is love
when my heart is cold
All I need is love
to get me through the snow
although my heart gets old
this love for you has grown
All I need is love
when we fight
Once I saw myself upon a cloud
Of trust I was a champion proud.
But then the night came
And the dark stole away
The light that returned not with the day.
"Anger, Wisdom, Regret, Pain,
They think my life is just a game
I can't stand another minute
But if I fold now I'll be defeated
Their torture stings like a thousand knives
But I can't trust these awful lies
If u hurt me I'm not coming out to play
In this lonely house I will stay
I will look after myself in this deserted home
It is where I am shielded and can safely roam
If you look through the windows you will see
Adulthood snuck up on me, deceived me
Oh, she’s a sly one
She flirted with me for a time, dangling her alluring maturity and ravishing freedom before my eyes
The cookie that cares
The cookie that shares
Oh we must find hope somewhere
But where do you find your hope, which is oh so rare
Do you find it in the air ,
Those squinted eyes with a truthful stare
My bones hang loose. Shaking unconsciously
With no rhythmic tune.
There’s gravel in your eyes. Was that from when I
Tried to run away? Did I spew up the ground when you
Said it's too late? Now you're begging me to
Don't trust a creative typeDon't trust a musicianHe'll create melodies like the ones you heard as a childYou'll dance to every chord so blissfullyThe tempo starting slow then soon racing like your heart
When you don’t understand the thoughts in your brain, its the scariest thing in the world.
Nothing around you makes sense.
You don’t feel like yourself, and no one can help.
My heart skips a beatFeelings start to flowI stop myself from fallingI'm scared to let them grow
Time heals all woundsBut what about trust?I bet he's not after loveAll they ever want is lust
See your flower is delicate
Delegates of angels persuade to me you're heaven sent
But you know how the devil is..
With his disquises
Almost Compromised me
From the ground grew a violet
How could he?
This man who promised her everything, said he loved her, made a vow.
This man who was protected by her, shielded from horrors that he couldn’t handle on his own.
I will be your strong tree
I will, just give me the key
I am alone
Atleast I am not a clone
I will be there when you cry
I will leave if you lie
I am true
I don't know what you go through
No: life isn't horrible.
No: life isn't terrible
or terrifying.
No: I cannot stand silent anymore.
Yes: I will stand up for
what I know is true
and right.
I may be only one voice.
Do you have that somebody who you could vent to?
Cry to?
Someone you could laugh with,
when your mind is stiff.
Someone you feel comfortable around,
where your mind can rest astound.
Thoughts always cloud your mind
Disappointments seem to bring you down
The future tends to scare you
Hard work sometimes just doesn’t seem to pay off
Life gets rough, times get tense
Relationships strong like barbwire. People say trust no one but that’s no way to live.
I've never really believed in love because when I was younger I heard my dad say, "let's just stay together for the kids" behind closed doors, and my mom agreed with him for the first time in a long time
Isn't it strange how we can have so many friends, yet feel so alone?
Isn't it strange how someone we know can become someone we knew?
And then he touched me
He said it was ok, we were a trust, trust me and then he touched me again
And it doesn't go a way
Because he touched me
I'm a defect a goner
I was pricked with disease
To love you, I need to know you
I need to know your strengths, your weaknesses
I need to know how far you've come and where you're going
I need to know your likes and dislikes
I need to know why you want me
When Mom died, life lost a lot of its luster.While she lived, everybody could trust her.Everybody could trust her because she was so good.She was wonderful, she helped everybody who she could.
I'm cold. A chill in the air.
Wood fire dwindling to smolders.
Ash crisped cinders to share.
Cotton between our shoulders.
That endearing musk of burnt wood.
Knock, knock, knock.Love's arrived and his fists leave knuckle prints apon the door in front of me.Knock, knock, knock.Love's knocking earthquakes at my feet
Why do I make people my top priority? I work my ass off to please. It is weird how they don't care with ease. You push, fight, and scratch your way into their hearts just for some one to fake love you.
I write in you
My mother says it’s childish
My innermost thoughts
My secrets
Locked safely in the tear wrinkled pages of your tattered spirit
Burdened with my shameful exploits of debauchery and lust
I am the better side of darkness and the dim side of light.
I didn’t KNOW my blackened heart had a sense of what was right.
His eyes look so deep into mine
that I don't dare look too long
I'm intrigued
yet scared
that if I look in and try to understand
he will surely reach in
and grasp my innermost.
Use my weakness
Use my flaws
To display your strength
To display your cause
Use my talents
Use my skills
Only for your glory
Only for your will
Use all of me every part
Friday
you come home from college
full of stories describing your
drunken antics,
a new affinity for the Spanish language,
and ambitions destined to take you
far away from me.
for a moment,
Love is the feeling of sensations.
To hold a pain in your heart for someone,
To capture that pain-
Only making it whole when the lover is present.
It is the emptiness in the chest,
It is malicious. It is a place you go when you find revenge, vengeance, and reprisal,
Delicious.
It is a place where you feel trapped while you’re in it;
And where the memory, when you’re out, consists of black images—
How are we supposed to move beyond yesterdayWhen we are not confident in tomorrow?How can one moment you be so sure...and the next time feel borrowed?How can all the joy we found, be remembered now as sorrowed?How can time go on long enough for...
To be respected, I must be trustworthy,
To be trustworthy, I must be honest,
To be honest, I must know who I am.
I am a child of God, the God of truth,
The God of light who sees.
Dear my Love, the walls have fallen,
The stones and mortar have given way.
Authorities have not yet told
If it were attack, or mere decay.
The resting village still lies in peace,
I thought i could Trust you,
To help take away the pain,
But as the nights grow colder,
And the days grow shorter,
Your starting to fade away,
Like an old Memory!
I'm awkward,
I'm silent,
I don't try to get to know others'
and when I try to fake my emotions,
some of my friends don't buy it.
I really wear my emotions on my sleeves,
Every answer is a lie,
Every night it all unfolds.
Only when I'd rather die
Is when the truth is told.
Every answer is one I hide,
It scares me more than you know
Because when I search,
odd how i think ofYou in the spice aisleof the grocer near my homewhich sits empty,waiting forYour bodyto fill it with the smell of rosemary andsmoke. if only i had time
Hey.
Hi
Are you ever going to answer me?
Daddy, I know I have screwed up alot, but please just say hi?
Mom a word that's supposed to mean safety,but to me it's the epitome of MAYBE,
MAYBE she'll be here tonight or tomorrow,
MAYBE out drinking, I'm thinking,
this word mom makes me feel irate,
You told me life was crazy
Never about the snakes in the grass
You told me they were evil
One bite- I would never last
I'm not going to lie,
I didn't trust you at first.
I didn't want to meet you.
But...
I did anyway, and know...
I Love You
Standing against the wall. I feel the pressure of the world on my shoulder. It keeps bringing me down. Wanting me to be one thing, while I want to be another.
Dear Dad,
You're never there,
and you'd think I'm mad,
but I'd a;ways think You'd have time to spare,
for me.
Dear Dad,
can't you see,
you're the one I've never had.
My home is a feeling, not a place
The feeling I get when I see the face
of my dear and trusted family
The one's with no blood shared
yet bonds we see.
O how I yean and yearn for ye
You question the expanse of my love because you cannot see its depths, but do you question the deepness of the ocean though humanity has yet to unearth its deepest point?
You made me believe it was possible to trust another human being.
Of course the only reason why I've become so cynical of trust,
is simply because i've been broken by constant sorrow,
It can be hard to stop and think about the man behind the curtain.the one thats truly hurtingThe one thats not deservingYou can never be confident with the one behind the curtain.
"It wasn't anything YOU did, I do have trust issues."
Your words still ring through my head
What could have happened
To make you this way
Why couldn't you have told me sooner
The tears I wasted
When my wings got seared off by the sun,
when i free fell, saw the ashes of my hopes and dreams
gently floating after me, I thought I was done,
that the ocean would end my agony
The same brain, body and gender.
Having a light make-up,
We go out.
Wearing pink dresses and high-heels.
As usual...
jump head first into the
flaming inferno because he told you so
try not to sweat
when he calls you a pussy
let the third degree burns be a
reminder to never trust a soul
Blistered ego, aching self,scared girl in lion's mane.Teeth bared, upturnedto keep sanity. I don't wantto inconvenience, I
There are moments in the night when I wish for someone to lay next to me,
embrace me in their arms,
and not let me go till the moon finally takes its leave.
Look at me and tell me what you see.
A young black educated male is what I hope you perceive me to be.
I have God beside me, my parents behind me and my family around me and I’m going to strive to be all that I can be.
She looks like heaven
to me
She says no but that's okay
not everyone can see
The way her eyes shine in the morning
My skin,
my bones
are crumbling.
My remains
are
becoming dust.
And from my
decomposing
self,
I hope that
your flowers
will grow,
I am fragile.
To look at me you would see a young woman standing at 5 ft. 3 inches and think
“Of course she is fragile.”
But no…
My stature does not determine my strength.
I told you because you asked,
And I asked you not to tell anyone.
It dosen't matter what I told you,
Wheather I'm sick or not,
The problem is
You went and told God and everyone
I'm feeling fireworks on my lips
i can't believe you look at me like this
i see lust in your eyes
and you look at me like I'm your prize
im really nothing at all
So why won't you let me fall
nuzzle love-bitten guarded girl
overlapping legs, fallen asleep together
blue glow dark room warm hidden world
strong gentle grasp, the trust of the touch on the neck
slight suffocation, enough to relax
The sick, twisted thoughts of a sweet, innocent girl...
Yeah, that's me, thinking of how depression is eating my soul,
Biting on my personality and gnawing on my broken heart,
I can't see a world with out you ,
But then again I can't see
I'm blinded by your love, my insecurities.
Every star in the sky
Is a different city
Rooftop missions
Summer ambitions
Different paths
Dances before us
Glazing eyes
Filled with wonder
Hope
You said you would always be there.
You said you would never hurt me.
You said you would always protect me.
You said you would always be in my life,
No matter what.
You said you cared about me.
I know your fears,
And sense you tears,
I know your dreams,
And sense your smile gleam.
Although you share with me
What others will not see,
I am silenced by your brushing hand,
I know your fears,
I sense your tears,
I know your dreams,
And sense your smile gleam.
Although you share with me
What others will not see,
I am silenced by your brushing hand,
Are the words I speak nothing more to you?
Are they just a hollow shell,
Or do they carry their weight
Through heaven and hell?
For you it may seem
Hard to uncover.
But for me it's easy,
The feeling I got that night
I thought that you were just right
Things were said and done
That I just feel into your trap
It was nice while it lasted
But, its obvious that things all blasted
Love bites on his lower lip
Little reminders scrawled all over her hips
Light and gentle fingertips
Lively skin curves beneath his grip
Her back arches under his touch
A reaction that he loves too much
And when I got through with my shift, I laid on the floor wondering why i felt like this..
The hogt of keeping this secret might be fun,
might be fun,
Believe in yourself s you can
Evolve and
Laugh at the things that use t caue you pain so you can
Inspire other do the same and
Engage awih them to be
Vivid and detrmined cause it'll than
They said it’d be a change
And it wouldn’t be easy;
Living a life like this
Isn’t a joyride.
I didn’t expect it to be
But I also thought I was stronger than this.
Last year held challenges,
Some that terrified me, some that didn’t.
All were conquerable
With the right mindset.
I made my plans, I planted my heart
Firmly, steadfastly into them.
When I lean into your neck
and a sigh escapes my mouth,
I am trying to tell you how to
touch me.
there was a moment
a weak, broken moment
where I wanted us to end
not because I didn't love you
not because you weren't exactly what I needed
not because I wasn't happy
You can’t fix trust with a Band-Aid.
Can’t just kiss it better or say I’m sorry.
It doesn’t work like that.
Lying is like driving a stake through their heart
Work
Work
W
O
R
K
That all you do,
But what about me?
We are the children of the world,
“You shouldn’t like me,”
Said the boy
Yet who I like
Is not up to him
Who I like is up to my heart
A heart that shuts out
The warmest souls
And defends me from pain
What is trust to you?
Does it mean anything?
Is it a word or a label?
Does it actually have meaning?
My mother of Resolution
A mother of hope
A listener of wisdom
My detective of crime
Understanding of all imperfections
Loving, caring, compassionate
Hold me close
Don't let me go
I'm falling for you but I doubt you know
Tell me I'm not crazy to give you so much and expect so little.
What are we doing?
Is this love or is it lust?
Never Forget
You Stained by bloody waters
A past haunts your present being
I see the pain in your eyes
The beauty of humanity
Rests under your soul
Like walking into the wind,
and you cant breathe.
like hearing the worst news of your life.
Missing a part of you,
you never knew you had.
Thats what its like to love you.
They say soulmates are the ones youre supposed to end up with.
The love of your life.
What if soul mates are the ones that make your life a living hell?
But can only make you think of happy times.
I hear your anger,
I feel your cries.
I can smell the fear of histories repitition;
the thought of certain memories guard you heart.
You cannot forgive nor forget.
How could you?
It broke your mind,
Dejection,
No affection.
Depression,
No expression.
Happiness?
No. Not anymore.
No more blessedness.
No more galore.
Why do I still love.
Why do I still trust.
My heart is a bubble I wish I could pop I hate the pain so much I wish it would stop. Hoping to cry adn trying so hard it won't stop the storm that's going on in my heart.
A crickety seasaw with an invisible old man on the other end.
You go up and down,
sometimes close to falling,
but you hold on, nonetheless.
I am a dream
A picture formed on the mind
I am a vision
Is what I think of all the time
But what does it all mean?
I can hear you scream my name
from the shoreline of my watery grave
but I can't answer your call
because I'm drowning in the darkness
and I can't see your hand
but even if I could
Confident words spoken at night
The rush of telling a secret
As the mask is ripped away
Breath escapes
The heart skips a beat
I can't describe the feeling in my chest
I may be blessed but I'm still feeling stressed
I can't find words to say what it feels like
But I'll say it's like losing your life
26 months but in the last few weeks
And it's funny,
How the pot's always calling the kettle black,
Funny the hypocrisy,
When you say,
"I'd never do something like that,"
Funny how similar
So many seemingly separate people can be,
Thump thump said the summer rain
Once upon a time I was glad you came
Your touch reminds me of the wind
Of the moss and the trees
A friend can feel all your pain
Unlike seasons, friends never change
A friend is with you thick and thin
A friend will stand by you until the end
My poems are like life stories now they tell what's really going down. Emotions, bundled up in a jar wishing I could throw them somewhere far. So much on my mind i don't know where to start.
What is a friend?
Is a friend someone you've known for years?
Someone you went to school with,
who listened while you wallowed in a pit of tears,
while deep inside they held something more.
Trust is like a currency or a golden ticket.
Giving it to that special someone,
So they will stay and be your friend.
Trust is something will live for and strive from.
The Hardness of her heart
the coldness of her hand, i wonder why she ignores me so much.
The sparkle in her eye is only when she crys, confort seems to not be enough.
Prove to me that you're still there, And prove to me that you still care.It's hard to put faith in what you can't see, But let's just keep this between you and me.Sometimes I have to question myself,
Looking back to the times, We laughed so hard.Can't you just seeHow perfect you are? The ideas we share, The words exchanged, And when we mess up, Each taking our blame.
For a friend I've since lost, this was his challenge to me: "Write me a poem in five minutes. Free verse, but I like rhymes. I dare you to make it fit me to a T, make it totally and completely me." And so, I did.
I know you do really mean it.And I can feel it in your touch. But I can't take a compliment.I'm used to the downs, not the ups.
You ask me to stay, Yet push me away.But I want to know, So I just can't let go.One day you'll realize, All the bad was lies.You're perfect to me, One day I'll make you see.
Hoping I'd find love,
Couldn't see how it'd be you...
The others that broke my heart...
Somehow I know this is true..
Since the time we danced,
The first time kissed,
The first time we met,
I don't think I could ever explain,
Everything I'd like to say.
I don't think that you could see,
Everything you mean to me.
Most of all, I don't think you understand,
Just how in love with you I am.
The way you leave me breathless,
I knew this form the start.
So here's to us, saying,
Until Death do us part.
Fleeting glances, Silent passes, Your eyes locked on mine. Sway to the left, Just out of breath, All for the very first time. Sway to the right, Feelings, don't fight,
Can you pay tribute to love itself?
Loyalty, passion, curiousity, Love.
It can't be seen, can't be touched.
An abstract concept we Love so much.
Together we're like fire,
And you need to be mine.
It's like apart we're still alive,
But the fire burns inside.
And I know you feel the same as I,
And now I'm starting not to fight...
Never take what you have for granted,
As one day soon, you may not have it.
I wish I'd known this when I was with you,
Because now our moments are precious and few.
One year ago right now,
Their hearts were still beating,
Their lungs, still breathing.
But one year ago today,
Two precious lives were taken away.
Midnight, September Seventeenth.
I hate how you never escape my mind.
Every song reminds me of you.
I can’t quite erase you from my life.
You’re there no matter what I do.
I knew it would kill me if I accidentally fell.
So when I did, I swore I’d never tell.
I suppose the only words left now are Oh Well.
I promise I will love you,
With all of my heart,
I swear I'll be with you forever,
Until death do us part.
Everything you’ve made me feel,
None of that’s in the past.
Everything I feel for you,
That’s something that’ll last.
Someday you’ll move on,
Roses are red,
State tests make me blue.
Does any one else hate them?
I SURE DO!
Love...
A dangerous game for two...
I know I should ignore it...
But I'd give it all up for you...
Lies I Believed,
Over a period of time...
VERY DANGEROUS.
Everyone should avoid
(AT ALL COSTS!)
Your eyes, your smile, your hand in mine,
Your laugh, your serious face, secrets that've bound us over time.
Your jokes, your craziness, your special kind of mess,
Your swears, your promises, the things we've confessed.
The art of the heart,
Love grows because you make it.
My heart's been through tough trial and error,
So be careful, it's easy to break it.
To love you is to need you,
To need you is to want you,
To want you is to not have you,
So I guess that's where I stand with you...
To love you is to need you,
To need you is to want you,
To want you is to not have you,
So I guess that's where I stand with you...
It was less than a week ago,
You told me you were mine,
It’s time to face the truth…
I know you lied.
No matter how I try to deny it,
I’ll always know it’s true.
I guess I should’ve known,
If you love me, I hope you’ll tell me,
If you don’t, I hope you won’t.
Because I’d rather think you do,
Than know for sure you don’t.
When I said my life was perfect,
I actually might’ve lied.
I lied again when I told you,
That I was entirely fine.
I lied when I told you,
When I said I’d be okay,
I also lied when I insisted,
When you said I had you,
I think you might’ve lied.
You don’t realize how much I know,
But I know what you tried to hide.
You made me fold away my conscience,
You were a temporary fix to the pain,
If I gave you my hand,
Would you take it and lock your fingers in mine?
If I gave you my time,
Would you take it and Make it last a lifetime?
If I gave you my love,
We finally confessed,
To each other, our love,
Since then I realized,
You're more than I've ever dreamed of.
Something happened the very first time I had with you,
You melted my world and I felt something true.
And everyone around me thinks I'm going crazy...
But I don't care because I love you baby.
Who are you in the eyes of me?
What a silly question to ask; can't you see?
If it only could be answered so clear and simply,
But I don't think you'd understand how much you mean to me.
As everyone's rushing around the streets,
I'll sit back, relax, and kick up my feet.
I've no need to spend money on stuff,
I already have what you're getting for Christmas, love.
I wish I could say we'll be together forever.
(But that can't happen, we both know.)
I want to say the kinks will work themselves out.
(But we both know they won't.)
I love you more than life itself.
You felt the same way all along,
We are in love.
This is everything and more,
Than I've ever dreamed of.
I've had a few broken hearts,
And I know those few are only the start.
Loved without holding back,
And ended up using tape to stay intact.
Wished upon a shooting star,
I've watched you play the girls,
But this time you've sworn your love to me.
Do you really have a soft side?
Or am I just the same?
You talk with them a week or two,
And you walk away without shame.
A good poem will always start from the heart,
And the heart doesn't have auto correct.
So just pick up your pen, put it to paper,
You'd be amazed at the words you collect.
The day I don't have to lie,
Will be the day we'll tell the truth.
When they finally see eye to eye,
I won't have to worry about losing you.
But for now I'll just keep wishing.
Saying I don't want to lie.
If today were my last,
I'd know I gave it my all,
And I'm okay with that.
If today were my last,
I'd smile with my last good bye,
And I'd have no regrets.
If today were my last,
If I died today,
Would you wish you had've told me?
Would you regret what you didn't say?
Or would you even think of me?
Would you wish you had've been nicer?
Would regret playing your games?
Middle school can be so tough,
Friends can so mean,
Love can be so.. ugh.
It's not worth it, that's how it'll seem.
But you'll live without holding back,
You'll wish on some shooting stars,
I feel your hands around my waist,
My heart beats at a steady pace.
Laying on me, I feel your eyes,
It's like a bunch of butterflies inside.
I've loved like I should,
But lived how I shouldn't,
Acted like every day was my last,
Loved like most wouldn't.
I've hidden my share of secrets,
Erased every bit of doubt,
Memories held,
Never to be told,
Between the two of us,
This'll never get old.
Constantly running,
Covering us.
This must be how it feels,
How it feels to be in love.
We took a chance,
We took our shot,
I hope this plan works out.
But foolproof? It's not...
We'll keep our secret,
It's under lock and key,
There's no one to confide in,
Since the first time we danced,
The first time kissed,
The first time we met,
I've wanted us to be it...
Hoping I'd find love,
Couldn't see how it'd be you...
The others that broke my heart...
Somehow I know this is true..
Forget the regrets,
Ignore the truth,
No matter the price,
I'll run to you.
This'll end in disaster,
I'm no good for you,
I still don't care,
I'll run to you.
When I start coming undone,
Love me like there's no tomorrow,
And when something goes wrong,
Slowly gently, let me go,
With the words of our sweet song.
I could never ask for anything more...
You and Me.
And when the rain begins to pour...
Just Kiss me.
And when you have to walk out my door...
Just Miss me.
And when we're together, just being bored...
I never thought I'd hear you say it.
"I love you..."
I never thought I'd be saying it back...
"I'll always love you, too..."
The stakes are high,
The water's rough,
The things we'll do...
What we'll do for love...
We know this isn't right,
But we choose to be wrong.
We're supposed to go with the flow,
But we're writing our own love song.
I miss that soft silence,
As we both breathe in.
I just hope that one day soon,
I'll get to hear that silence again.
We know we're a little bit crazy,
And probably not meant to be,
But it'll take more to make us see,
We're off the walls, just slightly,
But we can make this easy,
Because now it's just you and me.
I've never felt so close,
With you I can be me,
I've never felt so secure,
If only we could really be...
More stories of you,
Start to fall into place,
They say you're amazing,
They don't even know your name...
A secret held between us,
Easier for you to overlook,
The only way to spill for me,
Is the ink on the notebook...
Only a few more years,
It'll all fall into place,
Give me one more moment,
And I promise we'll run away.
Just one little secret,
And love you I may,
I can't promise I'll keep it,
Just a kiss on the lips,
Waiting for you to pull away,
I never wanted it to end.
Yeah, that was the day...
I toss and I turn,
When I try to sleep at night,
This time it's all your fault...
You've brought my senses to a new height...
It's like a millon shining stars spelling out your name,
From the moment I said I hated you..
I love how somewhere in between,
That changed to an I love you...
You swore to me you hated me,
I swore my hate for you...
I had my fingers crossed behind my back,
Now I know you were lying too.
My heart is in your hands now,
Please handle it with care.
If you're not ready to care for it,
Gently put it down and leave it there.
If I left, would you chase after me?
If I cried would you be there for me?
If I died, would you shed tears for me?
And if I said I love you,
Would you say you love me, too?
Let's make today last as long as we can,
For all we know, it may never happen again.
Like it's the last time we'll live, we'll touch,
Like it's the last time we'll kiss, the last time we'll love.
I'm a strong girl.
I keep it all in line.
Even if I'm not okay,
I manage to mumble the words "I'm fine."
They ask me if I'd lie to them,
Of course I'd never tell.
After two long years,
Came to short days,
I hope they're right,
About true love always finding a way...
Weekends gone and days passed,
I know you'll be there until the very last,
By my side or miles away,
I know we'll always be okay.
Your dark eyes get me,
as the world fades away,
please, hold me closer,
and kiss me in the rain.
It's just wrong enough,
Enough to feel right.
We smile at each other,
as our hands intertwine.
My footsteps.
They mark the schools,
The trace my home,
But best of all,
They're next to yours.
Meeting you was fate,
an act of destiny.
Being your friends was choice,
The right one, I think.
But loving you? That was beyond my control.
But hey, I'm not complaining.
They're crazy; they lie.
But who cares what they say?
They're full of themselves and jealous,
We know it'll be okay.
Soem people think I don't see it.
But I promise them I do.
When I stick to one boy for a really long time.....
I just really love you...
The memory of love is bittersweet,
Though the love itself was insane.
I used to think of it as perfect,
Now all I find is pain...
Love is blind,
as it tries to make life great.
But life is too freaked out,
Too crazy to see straight...
My hands are shaking cold...
I love you.
Your hands aren't meant for me to hold...
You said you did too.
I sincerely swore that I'd be true...
I believed your lies.
Somehow I still love you...
Yesterday night we went out to wander,
Still just children, chasing after love.
We ran around, hoping for,
That sweet feeling so unheard of.
We laugh at the stars and the shapes they make,
Somehow you brought my walls down,
Never failing to make me smile,
I hope I didn't make a mistake,
Letting you sit down and stay a while.
Just another girl,
All the same,
Ordinary and simple,
Just a different name.
In love she may be,
In love with you,
But would she write,
A poem? For You?
Now helplessly in love,
The first chance she got,
The hurt she'd found before,
She quickly forgot.
She'd made a mistake,
The negatives return,
It ripped her to bits,
As her eyes began to burn.
The faces pass and the places change,
Often I feel I'm all that stays the same.
But after stepping back and looking out,
I realized I've not got anything to worry about.
Do the words still matter?
Are they worth saying to you?
It's easier to keep quiet,
Hiding all feelings from you.
Remembering the past,
When it did matter to you,
When I should've kept quiet,
That girl in the mirror,
Isn't what she seems,
But I CAN promise you this,
That girl is me.
That girl in the mirror,
Is who she is.
She isn't everything,
But she is His.
Held down with love,
Trapped by you,
You stole my heart,
I love you.
I thought I was just a shadow,
On a dull grey wall,
Now I know the truth,
Now I know I was wrong.
The rain is quickly falling,
And I don't know what to do,
Time is slowly passing,
I wish I was still a part of you.
I regret the words I didn't say,
The things I never told you.
On the front porch steps,
We shared a smile.
In the moment we shared,
We hugged a while.
You pulled me in close,
We smiled again,
I like you a lot...
You're more than a friend.
And so when you're trapped,
When you're lost off in space,
It seems there's no one that's left,
I'll be calling your name.
From you I can't run,
From you I can't hide,
I just can't believe,
What you make me feel inside,
From you I can't flee,
From you I can't be,
I just want to believe,
That you are the one for me.
You're like the raindrops,
you fell from the sky,
You opened my heart,
You melted good bye.
You're something that I so badly want,
You're something that I can't not need,
You are what I have to have,
You're the someone that's meant for me.
Something that we want....
Something that we need....
You put your hand in mine.
I can touch the sky.
You look into my eyes...
All the pain quickly dies.
I belong to you, as you do to me.
Just a year ago I'd never have believed.
I'll always be the one that loves you and always cares,
And anytime you need me, I promise I'll be there,
I'll keep you safe, keep you warm.
I'll never let you go because you are the one.
I used to feel as if my heart could never love another,
And now with you I feel like we're meant for each other.
There's nothing I wouldn't do, boy, you know you drive me crazy.
I know I love you,
I know you love me, too.
It's as simple as you and me.
As simple as "We're meant to be."
On binders and bookshelves,
My hands and jeans, too,
On pages and papers,
I'll write of you.
On a strip of duct tape,
Across the top of my shoe,
On all my school folders,
I'm wishing on a shooting star,
Wishing it could take us far,
Wishing we could only be,
Us. You, and me.
You're wishing on a shooting star,
Wishing it could be less hard,
Wishing it was easy,
They swear it happened overnight,
But we both know the truth.
We know just how long it's been,
Two years going, me and you.
They swear it'll never last.
you know you're in love when...
you see each other,
and you just blush.
a blush leads to a smile,
a smile causes a giggle,
a giggle to a laugh,
a laugh becomes a hug,
a hug to a kiss,
You've had me hooked for a while now,
You've got my walls coming quickly down,
You make me smile, I want you to stay,
What can I say, when you make me feel this way?
Every time you hold me close,
He's the only thing that keeps me wishing,
And hoping, needing, and wanting.
He's the same kinda crazy that makes me think,
Think about everything I want "us" to mean.
I know there could be heartbreak.
That crossed my mind a little to late.
I'm busy thinking of your soft hands,
the expectation of your sweet kiss,
And of course what we'd become,
What we would make of this.
Memory after memory,
time after time.
It shouldn't have taken quite so long,
So long to call you mine.
The chances I've taken,
All the risks you took.
The possibility of us being mistaken,
Every little, lost dream,
Every little everything.
Never did I stop to think.
You were where they were leading me.
They've lead me straight to where you are,
Taking me evey where we'll be,
Side by side,
Or miles apart,
It's always you,
That's in my heart.
Day to day,
Year after year,
It's always been you,
That I hold so near.
Time after time,
Friend after Friend,
Sometimes we argue,
sometimes we fight,
we definitely have our fits,
but that's alright.
Maybe things aren't always perfect,
sometimes we wonder why,
occasionally I give up.
As if it weren't enough, to choke up all my trust
friends are foe, boys come and go,
the clothes I wear lack lust.
Come to school and "look a fool"
go home then start again.
I've never been led the wrong way
Never been lead astray
Your brown eyes take me on a journey
To another demension
I mesmerize thinking about us
What we could have
How easily we believe confidence in each other
And thus the risk is taken—we chance doubting everyone and everything we believed in.
The irony of trust?
To trust in me is to trust in you,
what you don't understand is that I'm broken in two,
wondering if I will get hurt and what will I do,
see my life is a lie,
I dont even trust the flies,
Trust
I can’t
I don’t
I won’t trust you
You hurt me
I hurt you
I wish I could still be with you
Regrets are overcome
Forgiveness accepted
But I am not receptive
People stand behind me
Supporting me
Cheering me on
They're my closest friends
In front of me
Are my enemies
I know they hate me
Their faces filled with disgust
They say holding on tightwill make it all right,but letting go is so much harder to dowith a glimmer of hope still in your heart.
I’d treat you like a queen, but what does it mean?
Not a thing, cause I’m new, and you want the old
You tell me nothing even matters, you lie to me
Warmth of your touch… yes, your lie's so bold
Day One.
We all smiled at each other, prospective friends,
Day Twelve,
We hate each other, more than we can bear.
The darkness we've found in these halls has begun to transcend,
you took an eraser to my heart and now all that's left are the words you painted with every sweet sentence.
The voice of the clock ticks
As I sit & think
My time begins to shrink
Sitting in a room full of desperstion & need
Trying to put all the beeds onto one string
I won't say I'm perfect
I won't say I'm pure
I won't say I'm blameless
Because I am sure
That you will not judge me
You won't stab my back
You'll make me happy
Because I know for a fact
"Let your trumpet blow!!!" so that it reaches the highest peak of your mountain
"Let your trumpet blow!!!" so that it reaches the highest peak of your mountain
I know you're my teacher, and you need to talk, but I can't be alone in a meeting with you.
You see when I was little, I was sexually abused and I got out of that, with an emotional bruise.
Mr. C
Why can't you be nice?
Why can't you be kind?
Don't you know that you're hurting others?
Are you blind?
Well I guess you are,
'Cuz you always stare at the ground.
A trip at the end of June.
One of those yellow summers muttered with new tales and new hormones -
Of gold and silver highlights -
Of diamonds and tampered addictions.
A flight quick as liftoff.
I feel alone in this empty shell
no one knows my hell
I thought I had control
But you wouldn't leave me alone
now I'm stuck in this house
You're a cat I'm a mouse
If I'm alive
What will it take for you
to believe in me
in We,
in Us,
in Trust,
for it is a must for the creation of Us
to survive and thrive
to not fall
but to dive
into a sea
You're not the one for me
You don't even know who you love
I don't know why it took me so long to see
That the greatest love of all comes from the one above
The ghostly chest stilled at the thought..
A future of love brought into existence quick like lightning
leaving the taste of heavenly ions on this earthly plane.
These are the things that I'll never tell you;
The things that you deserve to hear.
These are the things that I hold in secret;
The things that my heart fears.
They say that we accept the love
I'm supposed to be where wings are made but I'm not sure how to fly yet.
When will that person come, to show me how to get to that place yet unknown?
That place where in my dreams is revealed but in life is classified.
A day without worries is the day my bodies buried,
Call me a sinner....
But repentance is what wil save me from the furry.
Consistency was never a nickname,
and i dont wona use the same old lines that im just human.
I don’t write for myself
I don’t often write poetry
Words are use to express emotions
But what happens when the words don’t come?
God.
He sends a message,
a plea,
a vision.
My creative it's not so good but I never give up I always I always I always do my brst always putting do my best foot forward I try hard and fall hard but my creative is to make me stronger even if no one else as t
Screams and swears
Errupt from downstairs.
Two tiny brown heads have heard;
They hang on every word.
The shatter of glass,
The slam of a door.
He hits his gas
At last I ask of you
In the end I only plea
If there's only one thing you can do
Will you Believe in me?
I was born into this life,
flew into the earth
head held high,
clenched fist raised to the sky
I’d heard all the rumors,
of warfare and hate
Trust.
Defined as the assured reliance on the character, ability, or truth of someone or something.
Trust is Knowing that what you believe in, what you put your hope in
will not abandon you
What might be okay today
won't be okay tomorrow.
When your mind allows impulses to take over,
it's like you're giving up,
you gave up your strength.
Strength is usually what helps me through,
Meeting someone new is great
they make you realize you can kick all the bad ones out
getting to know the new, better peopleis just
indescribable feeling
hearing their stories
learning their ways
Pain-filled days run longand hope is dashed with careless words.Love is lost in a night's sleep and reawoken in hopeful dreamsOnly to be found dead in the morning light.
Secrets will be the death of someAnd if not physically then mentallyWe shouldnt keep secrets from our loved onesIt will scorn even the most forgiving, of course unintentionally
It hurts me, more than it hurts you
Seeing the pain in your eyes makes me want to die
I will never understand it, but I’ll do my best and try
But I guess if nothing was said, I really didn’t know you at all
Who knows if I could trust you,
Who knows what you would do,
If I tell you all my secrets,
Will you be sincerely true?
Are you going to tell your friends,
The things that I told you?
If you could only see my eyes
What would you think
Would you look for beauty
Or would you watch me blink
Would I just be a photo
A picture in your head
Or would my eyes be portals
I'm the one that fell too hard, too fast.
I guess what he felt wasn't happiness.
He saw her for the first time in six months.
Everything he had felt came rushing back like floods.
Who was I?
Nobody now.
I know that
sometimes when you fall down
you have to stay down for a bit
Because that fall knocked out
Every breath of hope you carried
And you don’t want this world to see you cry
Poor girl, I see how you hurt.
Set against you is your own life,
Gives you so much struggle and strife.
You're pushed facedown into the dirt.
The glass between us is deep
A clear light into my life
You could see in and she could see out
Still no sound was exchanged
Words stayed on tongues
Eyes tried to glimpse but never cough the others
Both our deepest fear and most transcendent dream—
burrow deep within our deepest heart, not to be found
By those who search and search with just their hands.
It comes to us in darkest night, in most uplifted day
Ever ending space,
Omniscient eyes looking down,
Hearing us call,
Crying in hopelessness, pain,
But waits patiently, loving.
There are billions of stars in this little window.
Billions of stars in this tiny window pane of mine.
At first, you only see the brightest shining ones.
But at a closer glance, the smaller ones start to shine.
The water was clean, the water was clear
The water was felt and fell over her
Through her hair and to the nape of her neck
It ran down her shoulders, onto her back
Clear, clean, and cold it crept to her soul
As I sit here thinking about the present
And the life that was destined, for my future
I can't help but think back when....God first called my name
I've tried walking that narrow path and it was too much for my lane
The butterflies
The giggles
The shuffles
And the smile
All those are signs
The meetings
The kisses
The phone calls
The texts
Can't you see what I do
Unsaid words
Flew around like a flock of birds
laying under the old oak tree
That December
Watching how free birds could be
Wishing you were here with me
So you could see
Like this tree
Trust is like some bittersweet cupcake that I can’t sink my teeth into.
Tempting, as most unattainable things are, but vile.
It’s something you try to shove down my throat with sharp and cutting thrusts,
thoughts of my consciousness dare me to be different
while my actions are persistent
thoughts of my consciousness dare me to say no
while my body says i'll control
I make a guess from this heart in my chest that he looked like the the night put to rest.
He had his hood thrown over his head as it hid the blood-red shed of tears.
Yes he'd been misled but instead he just looked ahead.
Sometimes the feeling is so strong with the way that you treat me
You pulled me into your world and you made room for me
Even thought I can’t see you I can feel you with
With just a simple word you get me there
Trust is hard to come by nowadays,
and a person can't just be free
to live their lives in peace
without the pain of another's
wrongdoings interrupting
the daily chaos of their own
These thoughts are strangers to my head,
These thoughts behind the wall
Where once stood nothing.
Now is hope
But fear, it still abounds.
A chance on success
A chance on failure
A chance on life
A chance on friendship
Take me or leave me
Love me or Hate me
Don't try to make me feel less if
I don't fit inside of your "box"
In whom can I trust,
In whom can I confide,
Secrets and worries,
Promises and confidentiality.
Where can I go
And where can I hide?
Is there anyone I can go to,
Go to for help?
I can’t read you
All I know is what I feel
Ask me to explain it
And the words just disappear
Mother once told me
That everything was ok
That there was another day
For me to believe
And feel relieved
But nothing was ok.
person of trust
trust no more
laugh at my pain then
hide my pain now
command respect
and give little respect in return
demand me to work
but work I do not
pretend serious one minute
I bet you don't even notice
That your criticisms really hurt
Please try to screen
The awful things that you blurt.
If you will only trust me,
I can show you I am strong,
If you will only let me be.
I know it is hard because I agree,
But you haven’t taught me wrong.
If you will only trust me.
There's nothing much I want to say,
but I'll pour my heart out to you anyway.
All I can think is no more talking.
Only out of faith, we gotta keep walking.
Never spoke a word to you before now,
What's there to do when you are on my mind
Every thought seems to only be of you
I see the truth but yet I still am blind
What I feel is real and my heart is true
My heart and mind seem to be in a war
Can’t you see,
I’m trying to be optimistic.
Everything you did,
I try my hardest to forget it.
Don’t wanna hurt you
By acting like I’m so resented.
But we’ve done it before,
once lost, it disappears,
it vanishes.
it disintegrates into nothing,
it's absence leaving a void
that can never be replaced.
She wraps her tiny hand around my thumb
as tears run down my face.
Her green eyes ask so many questions
that I just can't answer.
Not now.
Something simple.
The trust you place in another.
It brings comfort.
Relaxed mind.
Removing it from a state of constant caution.
Not a bad feeling to have.
Pretend your sleeping
He might believe you
Close, close eyes
Violate
Violate
Violate
Make it stop
Pretend your sleeping
Violate
Violate
Violate
Push, run, hide
