My real feelings...
I just don't fucking give a shit anymore.
I've probably been depressed since middle school
And it's all your fucking fault.
I've lost all motivation.
Most things don't excite me.
None of it makes me happy.
I feel bad telling people that I don't give a shit.
So I don't.
I wish that I would die.
I've thought several times about killing myself before.
I've just never gone through with it because I didn't want to feel the pain.
I don't want to inconvenience anyone.
I want to have never existed.
I want to cease to exist.
I don't want anyone to know me
I don't want anyone to love me.
I just want to be another statistic that no one cares about.
If I didn't wake up tomorrow,
I wouldn't mind.
I feel like it'd be for the best.
I just want to disappear,
And then it'll be sunshine.