A Wine Filled Heart
My life has been on hold for so long I didn’t even realise
No progress has become the new norm
While I sit here and wait for you to love me
Like once upon a time when we were both so young
Young like I thought I still was but just realised I wasn’t
That fleeting moment when you loved me more than I loved you
That even faster blink when we loved each other equally
When you told me that I was beautiful
When you looked for me in wait
When you listened to my words
When you touched my skin
When you kissed my lips
When you told me you loved me
And then again every day
Before it was seven years later
And I knew your love had died
When you hadn’t told me I was beautiful for so long I don’t remember
When you didn’t care for what I say
When you last looked at me
I couldn’t say
When I’d forgot the warm touch of you skin
as you pat me on the back and sent me on my way
When me wanting to kiss you
negotiated to a cold plea of a peck
When an I love you was an occasional reciprocated reaction
When you hadn’t expressed your love to me for 3 years, 3 months and 1 day
All the hope and optimism died for me on this day
Despite years of trying
Years of lying
To myself
I realise you no longer love me today.