Starting a New Life Without You
Walking on eggshells in order to please you,
you said that if I didn't listen you would sabotage me.
Send my pictures to college admissions,
tell my parents that I had begun drinking again.
You claimed it was
"#BecauseILoveYou."
If you loved me, you wouldn't have
squeezed your hand around my throat until I couldn't breathe.
You insisted that it was all my fault and it was
"#BecauseILoveYou"
My family had no idea
I told them the bruises were from me being clumsy.
I lived a life of fear of you,
and constantly begged you to let me go.
Admitted into the hospital for a broken nose
but he said that it was necessary.
It was because I talked back.
He said it is simply
"#BecauseILoveYou."
The night you threatened me,
told me that my family was at risk,
I swallowed my pride and filed the papers.
I ran away and never looked back.
I lost my money, my education, my friends..
but I did it for myself
for a new beginning that I deserve.
#BecauseILoveYou"