Sanctum

These ups and downs don't mean a thing
I'll still continue to stare down these walls
Locked in a contest until the end of time
Where if one speaks, they break resolve
So hunt me down
And blow me off
I stopped caring a long, long time ago

For what words can you say to stiffen me?
How you portray...that's the best you can be?
I've dealt the fool's card time and time again
But this war is no longer mine
And my guns are all bloody, soaked red with time

Cut my hair and knock me off that pedestal
Belay the crown atop my head
Am I not a knight in a queen's fashioned palace?
Or am I but a peasant seeking reprieve?
How, how could you do this to me!
Lend me your eyes and let me see what you see
Waters are rising in up to my knees
Damn you confusion!
You'll only draw higher

Send me off with harsh words
And strip me bare
Where I lie naked down the center road
My flesh becomes tarnished by nickel and dust
Turned silver from the moon's ghostly glow
I still stopped caring a long, long time ago

I should have run at the drop of the first pin
Yet I waited unto anxiety
To hear your words, your broken pleas
But now...tis naught but memory
My dear, you've grown old in your naivety
No one left to feed your spite
Or drip your ego til it bites
To sink its teeth into the flesh that bleeds until it finds the site
Gorging tender pain and strife
And like a snake, let go its hold
Until it finds another life

My darling, how cruel you've turned...
Your once sweet voice now flaked with hate
I beg you, look unto the sun
And dance within its rays...
And discard those dark and dreary shadows
That have you locked within their daze
Could I but muster the energy
I'd hurl you forth to wondrous praise
But my hands are far too grazed
And I do not wish to drop you

So I'll play among the daffodils
And sing with wolves in clover fields
Crane my neck up towards the sky
To let my voice be heard to heal
And sleep once more til moon is nigh
Like dusk to paint the evening pyre
Won't you come with me...and dance among its weary fire?

Light my candles and settle with me
And sit in naked ecstasy 
These primitive flames, they will not bite...
For they are too innocent
And shelter no remorse to spite
Take my hands
And I will take you far away

But in the end, I know you won't
For you are too afraid
My heart was yours, but tis no more
I cannot grieve unto this day
My eyes are no more prey to tears
But at your feet, I duly laid
The lion in me...roars my release
And calls my name to sanctum peace
Remember this day, my dear
For I am free

No longer caring
For now, for now I fight once more for me!
And you...you are just the memory

Poetry Slam: 
This poem is about: 
Me
Our world

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