The Price of "Friendship"
When I entered middle school it wasn't quite as I had planned
Sure people were 'nice' and everything
But there were unspoken demands
Like what to say, and how to dress and even how to stand
It became a lot for me
But I managed pretty well
Most of the time I had enough
So that my image I could sell
Of being one of the cool kids-
Until demands began to swell
By the time I reached the seventh grade
I was halfway buried in the sand
All the expectations piled up
I was putty in their hands
It was because
Being exactly who I was
Was what I feared the most
I didn't have everything that other people
Used so much to boast
So I curled myself into a ball you could fit into your hand
I felt alone and by myself
Cause who could ever understand?
While I was trying to gain some friends
I was losing who I was
I thought "People really like me,"
Without knowing who does
It continued on like this for a very lonesome while
It began to feel like ages since I had genuinely smiled
Having "friends" around me wasn't as perfect as it seemed
Keeping up was tiring
And I was losing steam
In the year of my ninth grade I began to do reflection
Something was changing inside of me
I began some introspection
More often than not
I partook in some deep thought
And began to think quite suddenly
'Everything I am cannot be bought'
I began doing things I wanted
Like dancing in the streets
I was definitely catching stares moving to my own beat
But I was really happy
So all I could think was "who cares?"
It took me quite a while to know that I was beautiful in all
That in order to fit in
I didn't need to feel so small
Through this process I developed not only confidence but gall
That's why I believe being who I am
Is what is most awesome of all