I begged you for forgiveness
But you sat on your throne a laughed
I know you gave me my time with him like I asked you too
You gave me his love so you could watch me
As you took it all away from me forever
I don't know what to believe anymore
But if I don't stay here, where do I go?
In spite of your playing, your toying with me
The punishment for love, the reward for hate
I still cannot believe in anything else
I think I deserve it even if I do not
Because you told me I do, and I believe
I've never even thought about leaving you
I never thought that anything else was right
I never thought about what would happen if I decided to run
I can't say I don't believe in you
I mean, I'm literally talking to you right now
But what am I supposed to do when all you've done
Is destroy everything I tried to create?
Are you scared of me? Of what I might become?
Am I more powerful than you?
I can't believe that I am because I've never been allowed to
I don't think I am, I can't be
You created a universe, this earth, these people, all of it
I can't simply think of something and see it before me
I can't fix anything, I can't make any of this better
I am powerless at your feet
And I accept that, but I hate it with every fiber of my being
You gave me nothing to go on, but I don't mind you being in control
I've given that much up to you in sacrifice to preserve my place at your side
But why must you take and take and take and take
When all I've ever done is give?