Inside My Insanity

We have forgotten,

Summer’s last innocence at

Sunset,

How the colors melt into

Oranges and

Yellows and

Purples…

And that faint breeze

That

Used to tell us

We were forgiven.

I cannot tell you how often

I long to be

Forgiven.

 

We have forgotten,

Autumn’s sharp breath

And burning

Memories…

It gave us the courage to

Cry when we knew that

We couldn’t change the past.

I wish I could

Remember

That

Now.

 

They don’t know

Winter’s calming lullaby,

As it sings me to sleep in

My own

Cold

White

Silent

Grave.

They don’t know

Winter’s empty world

That I run through,

Searching for them,

Shouting for them,

Calling their names,

They don’t know

They don’t know that

I’m looking for them.

I can’t find them,

And I’m alone

On my search for a

Nameless god

To tell me

I am forgiven,

To remind me that

I can’t change the past.

They don’t know who I am

And

Neither do I.

 

I have forgotten

Spring’s warm

Acceptance

To our mistakes and

Our sins

And all our

Pasts that we can’t

Change,

All our frozen memories

And

Lost hope.

I have forgotten

Myself

But the ice in my head

Is melting and

I know I will

Find my soul,

I will find it when once

Again

The sun rises,

All

Purple and

Yellow and

Orange and

We will remember.

I will remember.

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