I Hate You, I Love You
This back and fourth bullshit from you is something that I told myself I would never deal with,
But I decided that when it comes to you, I can't deal with it anymore, and I have decided to plead the fifth.
Over the past two years, I put on a pedestal and gave you the best parts of me.
But you were too stupid and immature to ever see the best parts of me.
I am no longer going to be crying myself to sleep at night wondering what I did wrong,
Because I have been through too much in my life to let you stop me, and all of this has made me too strong.
Whether people like it or not, the girl who used to let people get away with treating her wrong is long gone,
Because the queen has fixed her crown, and I am no longer going to play this game with you and sit back and be your pawn.
From now on, I am treating you the way that you treat me, and I know that is something that you're not going to like,
And if you don't like it, I really don't care, and you can go take a hike.
I have done so much for you, while you weren't even man enough to give me basic respect,
And the past two years have left my heart and brain in a constant war, and have left me feeling wrecked.
I have learned that there is nothing else I can do to make you realize all that you have missed,
But I can keep doing me and make you realized how stupid you are, and I know that will leave you feeling pissed.
I know that is part of the problem with you, is that you took advantage of me because you thought I would always be there,
But I have finally realized that you simply just don't care.
I am no longer going to do things for you, from here on out, I am doing all of this for me,
And I am no longer going to give you credit of all of the things that we could be.
I can't make you treat me right, but I sure as Hell can make you wish that you did,
And the only thing that is going to change anything is if you grow up and stop acting like a little kid.
You really need to grow up, and I gave you too much credit, because you have a lot of maturing to do,
And I wanted to give you the benefit of the doubt, but deep down, this was something that I always knew.
For the next twenty-three days, I am going to disappear like never before,
And I am fianlly ready to move on from you, and to close that door.
I deserve someone who doesn't leave me crying myself to sleep every night,
Especially when it is because he simply doesn't know how to treat me right.
When I return, I am going to be unrecognizable, and you will finally see that you are fucked,
But you had so many chances, and overall, you really just suck.