Don't Watch As I Self-Destruct

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There's a crime that's stuck inside my mind

A life built on this crooked line

I'm lost in these innocent times

My cries are unheard

My destination is absurd

So many crowding around my room

Hoping to ask

Wishing I'd tell

My answers lie down in Hell

 

Who are these people?

They're staring through the keyhole

Drowning me in their eyes

Then leaving without a good-bye

There's nowhere to hide in this place

Nowhere to go that's safe

Meds strike the thoughts about me

Calm my nerves

Please don't look at me!

 

My wounds are here

My damage is clear

To anybody that goes by

Witnesses to my weakness

A permanent lullaby

 

These walls are crashing down upon me

Desperate cries scratch at my lungs

Forcing me to hold my tongue

If I'm found I'll be kept here

My greatest fear

Not to leave this house of tears

A doctor opens the door

The patient's unresponsive

A pool of blood on the floor

Check my pulse

Make your calls

I won't survive my lifetime

 

I'm now peaceful

A light is shining

White clothing

At my bedside

They ask, "Is she okay?"

He replies, "We're too late."

There was nowhere to hide in this place

Nowhere to go that was safe

I striked the thoughts about me

Calmed my nerves

While they stared at me!

 

My wounds are here

My damage is clear

To anybody that went by

Witnesses to my weakness

They're singing my lullaby

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