I hear you words everyday
in somhow in some way
you say you aren't controlling me
but I am trapped I'm not free.
You degrade me in public
call me names to make me feel pychotic
thanks to you my son was stillborn
it left my heart completly torn.
I know I should leave
but who will believe
it is my word against your word
and it is nothing they have'nt already heard.
My family stopped listening when I chose you
no my face stays black and blue
Now I cannot go to my family
because to them I too am their enemy.
I face this routine on a daily basis
everyday I tell myself he is blameless
that this somehow is all my fault
and one day the abuse will hault.
But it continues on and on
making me nothing more than your pawn
I tell myself I am strong
but the longer i stay I see I am wrong.
I keep saying "one day" in my head
but I cannot leave if I am dead.