It's funny how life decides to teach you lessons in the hardest way,

And that most of the time, you don't know what else you can do, think, or say.

For the first time in a long time, I am finally starting to feel like me again,

Even though things aren't back to how they were back then.

It took me a long time to realize that the thing holding me back was you,

And that as much as I wanted to, I knew that there was not much else that I could do.

I had to let you go in order to finally allow myself time to heal,

But that does not take away from the fact that there are still moments when I continue to feel.

I feel like if I had tried a little bit harder, than maybe I would have been good enough for you,

And there is still that little piece of me that wants to believe that maybe you would have wanted me to.

You will always have a piece of my heart that no other will ever be able to own,

And over the past four years that I have known you, the love for you only continued to grow.

I can honestly say that maybe I need to stay alone, because I don't think I will ever be able to find another,

Because I know deep down in my heart there is no other.

I can't move on to someone else if the only person I think about is you,

Because I can't just forget about someone like you and everything that we have been through.

I hate to say it, ever since accepting our reality, I do feel so much better,

And I have it all written down in that letter.

The one that you will never read, and the one that I will never send,

Because it talks about how much I love you, but to you, I was never more than just a friend.

I have so much love for you that it is scary because I know I will bever be able to give it to anyone else,

So I think I need to take a step back, and put that part of me up on a shelf.

I think it is just time to focus on me and everything that I want,

But I know your voice and the memories that we made will continue to haunt.

Because I know deep down that there is only one you,

But I know deep down, that there is nothing more that I could do.