The worst thing about depression is, you don't care about anything.
I don't care if my father knows I hate him for all he has done
The tears, the tourtue.
I am scared because of what I've seen him do.
I am scared because of what I've felt him do.
I am scared because of what I've heard him say. What he has said to me. His words are like being stabbed 100 times in the heart every day.
"You are worthless"
"You are an idiot"
"You are good for nothing"
"You are ungrateful"
I am worthless
I am an idiot
I am good for nothing
I am ungrateful
Maybe if I did die everything would be easier for them. God knows I've already writen my suicide letter over a million times