Everyday I fight a war.
I get up without the guarantee of seeing you.
I go to school without you to make it bearable.
I smile without you to make it real.
I laugh without you to make it full.
I try to make others happy when I feel like shit inside.
I go home feeling as though I've lost everyday.
I fucked up and now even the little things are hard.
But I trudge on knowing that one day.
I might win a battle, then another,
until I eventually settle this internal war peacefully.