Summer is approaching, day by day
and with everyday that comes to a close
I sense the hours breaching my soul.
Hour by hour, the time gashes me apart.
The days get longer and drawn out
while the nights become unmanageable.
No longer can I feel the fade
the gentle fade of an enjoyable day.
A day of laughter and smiles
all candidly and principally sincere
to a night accompanied by tears
and bottomless thought of a painful past
I' m trying so hard to leave behind.
My days I easily spent walking on air
suppressing the fear and pain
until the darkness of the night
exposed the frightful thoughts I avoided.
Safe inside my lovers arms
I pray an escape will come to my mind
our souls have been harmonized
and I abound in the safety of his love.
however my endless love for him
isn't something that stops the emerging
of the pain that's preceding.
It was a gentle yet distinguishing difference
my days from my nights.
But now it seems I can't wake up
I can't escape the exposing nights.
I look out the window
and even though its only mid day
I see the shadows of the moon
and dancing shadows
rather than the rays of the sun
that are clear as day to the next person.
My mind is being weighed down
and I'm trying to hold it up
my past excitement has grown seldom
it feels like I've fallen to depression
and I don’t want to be so despaired.