Just Being Me

If you paid me just a dollar
For every waking thought I've ever had

Baby don't hide your tears
Don't hide yourself for just a guy
Let it flow
Let it cleanse your heart
I guess it's my fault I wear my heart on my sleeve right

You changed up like I changed clothes
I don't let nobody close to me
Wonder how you left me
You left me feeling empty
Cuz I be goin through so much pain
Is it all worth it
Tears keep falling

Keep your fake love
I don't need it anyway
You keep tearing me apart
Just a distant memory
I no longer feel the need to say anything to you
I'on want anybody close to me no more
What the fuck I'm s'posed to say
I remember late nights all alone
Yeah
I miss you but apparently I don't know the real you
I remember every word you ever told me
Can't stop thinking about you
Thought you were different

It don't matter anymore,
Nothing you could do or say
But it still hurts
Your words mean nothing to me anymore
U stabbed me
Then acted like you're the one bleeding
Consider what I feel like
Thought you were different than before

U can't handle my love
I can't handle your lies
Tell me why I'm waiting for someone,
Who doesn't give a f✴️ck about me
Who gave you the rights to play with my feelings?
Nah
Loyal but I ain't stupid

Never caught a feeling this hard
So sick of this fake love
But I'm sick of waiting
Yeah but where did I go wrong
People change,
Even Satan used to be an angel

Can't believe I really thought U cared for me?
Gotta stop putting my all into people just to get nothing in return
I no longer feel shit
I wanna say a lot but nah
Tell me why I gotta say goodbye alone

I can't control my feelings, but I hate how they control me
If you want love you gon' have to go through the pain
Nobody got no clue how broken we is
You ruined me
I lost myself
Ruined my reputation

I would die for you,
Yeah I would die for you, but you can't even live for us
Nobody got myself like I do
Don't worry bout me...
Well you never did but I got me
Consider us done

You sleepin, while I'm drowning in anxiety
This pain is so strong
Who knew evil girls got the prettiest faces
First the pain hits, then it changes you
Pain changes people

I wish that I could let the world know
That it's okay to let the pain show
And even though times seem bad
It always rains before the rainbow

I wish that I could let the world know
That it's okay to let the pain show
And even though times seem bad
It always rains before the rainbow

Poetry Slam: 
This poem is about: 
Me
My family
My community
My country
Our world

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