Everyday I wonder
Everyday I wonder why
Everyday I look into your eyes
I see what I don't want to be
Everyday I picture a dream in my head
One so profound I feel as if it can never be crushed
But one day creeps along that just takes it all away
Days pass minutes ticking wasted time doing nothing
Every day I wonder
Is this my final destination
I look into your eyes and wonder if the universe exists in them
I no longer see the vibrant greens anymore
Just the dull brown eyes of my reflection
The indents of skin stretched over bone
I no longer see the future but the ever so dying present
Everyday I wonder when will the next never come
I have been crushed and defeated
Choking on the anxiety bubbling up through my throat
Everyday I wonder does this day have to come
Do I have to face my fears again
Be kicked to the ground again
To be torn to shreds again
Because everyday I wonder
When will the next day never come