Bedroom
we are monsters together,
huddled under the bed
of our childhood selves,
keeping each other warm
when there is nothing to eat
but nightmares.
we both fear the same things;
food, sex, loneliness.
that is why our monsters get along so well
(i see the same kind of monster in you
that you do in me.)
i am not scared of you
because i have known this monster all of my life,
i have known you all of my life.
us monsters thrive on fear
on cold, on frozen limbs
and frostbitten lips.
i eat the taste of cigarettes
off of your tongue
and my belly rumbles.
(it is not enough)
i fear for the day
that your monster grows too big
for it’s skin
and you burst apart at the seams,
dripping bullet-riddled viscera
on the bedroom floor.
i fear that i am the one
feeding you bullets
like vitamins.
you come to me with the
remnants of your last hunt.
48 hours this time
my instinct is to offer praise,
tell you a job well done.
but as your sleeping body
whimpers on the bed,
i know that i cannot be the one
to worship your bony ankles,
to sing praises to your thinning hair,
falling out in clumps into the sink.
i cannot give you what you want.
you came to me asking for help.
i could only respond:
“it’s okay, i’m a monster too”