Here I am watching the rain whip through the window
The water seeps in the cracks of the thirsty hard wood floor
My face is soaking wet as I stand by the window, watching you leave
Tears, pain leaving my body, mixed with shortening of breath
With every splashing step of yours I feel my heart chipping away
Memories flood back and emptiness fills my chest
My ears ring as you start the truck, my hand on my throat
Trying to massage the huge lump in my throat so I can breathe
Freezing but I accept it, It numbs me
I see you speed off and I fall to my knees as if a rope tied me to the truck.
Instinct brings me back to the coffee shop where we met
Such a beautiful creature you were....are
If I had known I would have fallen for you like this I would have walked out
Your eyes drew me in and your smile caputered the butterflies fluttering in my belly
If I had known I would be standing here wishing for death
If I had known....
You might as well have literally cut out my heart with a jagged, rusty knife
Delusional I hear you breathing in my ear telling me about my imperfections
But your words entangle me with passion and I don't care because you end it with "I love you"
Your voice so clear.
I knew of heartache before I met you but this, this is cruel, this is an internal and everlasting Hell in my soul
My Heaven Sent Angel and My Silver Tongued Devil in one, My Ying and Yang
Here I am with the blade ripping at the pain
The Blood seeps in the cracks of the thirsty hard wood floor
My wrists soaking wet as I lay on the floor, hoping you'll come back