A Year Ago

A year ago,
I would have done anything to make you stay.
A year ago,
I had it all in the palm of my hand
to have it all fall apart six months later.


Christmas Day a year ago,
You had made me the happiest woman alive
This year, I sit alone, remembering the memories you left.
This Christmas, I'm surrounded by the overwhelming thoughts of running back to you.


Things haven't been easy ever since you've left,
Every day, I wake up with an ache in my chest.
It hasn't been easy getting out of bed, 
I surrender to my death, even at my best. 


I could have prevented myself from feeling like this
if I could just rewind time back to a year ago
back to when I was so happy, being with you.
I wish that I could tell myself to not tell you the truth
because it has been miserable each day without you.
I wish I would let myself feel a little bit longer,
I wish I realized I'd die without you,
I wish to be right back to us a year ago. 

This poem is about: 
My family


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