Aren't these things supposed to flow naturally?

Shouldn't I just be able to pour my feelings out into my writing?

Write eloquent, tearjerking stories 

and just

get it all out

Why can't I?

It's as if my brain is permanently buffering and everything I want to say is getting stuck in my throat.

Why can't I say what I want? 

My only desire is to be able to convey my feelings in the most personal way

maybe discover what I'm feeling along the way

maybe that's the problem

I don't know what I'm feeling and .... maybe I never will

I hope I figure it out soon.