She asked. He asked. 

Would you rather be with someone who is a total asshole to you making you sad most of your days and only show you affection behind closed doors

Or

Be alone and be happy?

I told her. Him. Them…
I rather be with him rather than be alone.

Sad I know.

Part of me shakes my head in shame, but the other part of me shakes uncontrollably in fear of being alone in this dark world.