Why Am I Still Standing Here?

Why am I still standing here

In this place where I was once happy

Even though I close my eyes

I still feel you staring down at me

Why won't you leave me alone?

How am I supposed to move on with this stare?

This stare burrowing deep

As I cross the frame into your mind

The threshold of insanity?

Looking at this rope that once bound

Me to you, You to me 

Together we are lovers yet strangers

That rope thickened

Became stronger

So did we 

In my mind the rope became real

Wrapped around you

Never to let you go into the darkness between

Loves lost and loves gained

This empty void of my heart

Where you left me

Standing yet falling on the shards of a broken heart

Cutting deep piercing my smile, turning it sour

With the poison of a thousand love songs you quoted to me

Yes, I know, you don't have to tell me

But I didn't say anything

For the thought was still the same

So now we come to identify

That very poison that has been used on others

Just like me

Ignorance in this case has been the bringer of much evil 

But the giver of so much good

So if I die of this ache

At least I'll know

It was worth it in the end

While the rope frays and floats away in the wind

Strands of what we once had

 

This poem is about: 
Me
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