When I read this and when you do too, you will think... How can I be so stupid to not be able to control this feeling

Truth is NO ONE can control there feelings they are who they are and feelings form by talking and getting to know the people that you have feelings toward. 

Life, throws so many things at you and this is one that throws the most at you.

My life us the type that make me think

 I think about life,my future,my stupid feelings fo rpeople I care about. 

I think about everything and I am the one that knows who I truthfully am and I am proud of it.

Honestly though, I would change things about this.

I would change how hard it is for me to learn

I would change how I can be if I am not the one that people understand and I would change me

I am happy to be me but at the same time I speak my mind and I get in trouble for it and I don't understand

I need to change the thoughts,the feelings,the ideas everything 

This is what I would change.