Tonight, I have thought more about the future than I would have liked too.. What am I to do? What is wrong? What is right? Darkness lacerating the last of my Light..
Must I aprreciate the little moments while they're still in my grasp? Must I appreciate the last bit of love I receive and all that I have? Why must my heart be Destroyed? Why must it be severed then torn?
A dull pain awakes inside me like a thrashing sea, Because all I can comprehend is that he is leaving me. Tears shroud my eyes.. Because it is almost time to say goodbye.
A calloused heart sanded smooth, All because of the brown eyed boy I am fixing to lose.. Almost half a decade apart... But, how strong is my Heart?
Through the kissing, the laughing and the fighting, There is one thing I hope he will keep promising.. To love me and come back, For that is all I need to make it last.
Tonight I have thought about the future than I would have liked too.. But what am I to do? What am I to think or to feel? Why is this so devastatingly real?