i'll admit it.
it's hard to make
when my brain is
working so hard
to keep my spirits down
pumping chemicals i
know shouldn't be there
straight to my brain.
but even so,
there are things
that put me at ease.
Homemade pickles and cartoons and
Books and waking up long before noon and
Those good long cries when i finish a book that i think's rad and
Those seldom sweet good days when i visit the sea with my dad And
I Love The Way My Heart Beats When I Get Off A Stage After A Good Performance And
Even Though I Feel Like A Disapointment Sometimes, My Friends Tell Me My Importance And
There Are Days When It's Really Really Hard To Get Out Of Bed, But I Always Find It Within Me AND
Life Can Get Really Hard Sometimes, But The World Still Manages To Be Full To The Brim With So Much Beauty And
WHEN THE SUNSHINE SHINES THROUGH MY BRIGHT RED CURTAINS AFTER I'VE STAYED UP ALL NIGHT AND
I KNOW THE WORLD IS SO ALIVE AND AMAZING AND FANTASTIC AND GOOD AND WONDERFUL AND BRIGHT AND
IT MAKES ME FEEL SO TINY BUT IT NEVER EVER MAKES THINK FOR A SECOND THAT I'M EVEN SLIGHTLY INSIGNIFIANT AND
IT EMPOWERS ME AND MAKES ME WONDER WHAT I'M CAPABLE OF AND TELLS ME TO STRIVE FOR SUCH MAGNIFICENT AND
it keeps me alive.