A Suicide Prevention Plan
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Why do I write?
Ha
Why do you breathe? Why do fish swim? Why do plants photosynthesize?
Writing to me is not only a way to express myself,
but
a suicide prevention plan,
an escape from reality,
a way to get the pestering thoughts out.
I write on paper so I do not write on my skin the things they used to call me.
Fat.
Ugly.
Whore.
Worthless.
Instead or staining my skin with scars,
I stain paper with my thoughts,
my pain,
my emotions.
Witchout writing I am numb.
I walk, zombie like, twards the sun,
all emotions blocked by the need to hold myself together.
But,
when I write,
I cry,
I laugh,
I live.
So,
to sum up this poem that I filled with seacrets to be judged so I can have the future I want,
I write to take the pain away.
Because,
if I did not write,
I would surly be dead by now.
Thank You