Wanting to shut everything out.Wanting to drown in nothing.Wanting to catch up to the present,While battling with the past. Holding back tears that burn.Holding back feelings aching inside.Holding back memories and thoughts. Having mixed emotions.Trying to get her head straight. It is so difficult living like this.What does it take to forget?Why is it hard getting her mind off of things?When is it all going to disappear? Tsunamis of pain. Hopelessness. Defeat.Nothing worth living for.Wishing for the coming of the Holy Light. Wanting everything back to normal.Just wishing it would all Stop!