i pull off my heavy-weight sweatshirt
i weigh myself
ranking up to nearly 100 pounds
im satisfied for now
i love myself enough to be content with an almost perfect weight
which was never easy
but it still leaves a pit in my stomach as i step off.
i rifle through my drawers and closet
compiling an outfit im happy with
im completely comfortable
when i leave my house
its as if
ive never been
in my life.
i assure myself that ill be comfortable again as soon as i get home
but i still
even after i change into something new
why is that?