Disrespect at an all time high, I hate myself for loving you the way I do.
Periodically ghosted and ignored as if I don't matter to you.
Your word means nothing, empty promises the norm.
Being honest and telling the truth is a rare form.
Nothing I do is ever good enough or meets your unrealistic standards.
In loving you, I devalue myself and willingly live below my standards.
I have to forgive myself for losing sight of the wealth within myself.
Lesson learned, you are not worthy of being in the presence of my best self.
I was vulnerable when you met me, you were easy on the eyes.
You manipulated me, spoon fed my hungry heart with lies.
I trusted you and you robbed me cheating me out of a healthy kind of love.
Had me on my knees praying for strength to move on from above.
Time after time, stunt after stunt, I forgave your treason.
Everytime you, it’s never you, there is always some excuse or reason.
I’m taking accountability for me, today is the day I make a wiser choice.
Follow my first mind, put my mask on first, give my heart a voice.
It would say, “I deserve to be treated according to my worth.
That I have been blessed and highly favored since birth.
Don't allow the sickness of another to taint your loving spirit.
I am your heart, I am here, I dance in harmony with life’s journey making beautiful music.
You are the DJ, you chose the next beat drop, don’t give your hearts’ song to those desiring to silence it.”