Not Fine
Hello and goodbye
the same each day
waiting for something new
something different
a sign that life can get better
I'll smile at you
but inside I'm screaming
I'm not fine
not even close
but you'll never know
Looking back
I don't know how it came to this
the sadness consuming me
as I hide behind a curtain
no one suspects anything
Why I can't talk about it
I don't know
I must find the strength
but I need to come to terms myself first
before letting anyone in on my secret
Seek help they say
but it's not that easy
they think I'm happy and normal
they won't believe me when I tell them
that things aren't always as they appear
There might be a way out
but I don't want to risk even more disappointment
I'll pretend that I'm fine
I don't want to hurt anyone else
I'll be happy, but I'm really not fine