My Truth

Mon, 12/16/2019 - 20:38 -- MNR051

  People ask me                                                                       

Why you got to be so heartless?                                                                                                                                                                                                                                       Why you got to be so cold?                                                                                                                                                                                                                                         Why don’t you let anyone get too close? 

They scare me off, I run away, I fold 

I do not trust easy 

 I’m often the game but I’m played as the fool 

 I kept getting hurt, sad but it’s true                                  

 

When someone came in my life 

Where they get close 

Leaving was my cue 

 I cut them off from my life 

As A Whole 

Because In my life, that’s all people ever did 

 Still do, all up out of the blue 

Disappearing was the only solution I knew 

I’m an airplane crash, I fell not flew 

 I’m damaged, best believe that’s the truth 

This world is something very cruel 

I don’t know how my heart is still kind 

  Or how cleansed is my mind 

 I’m not one to be sold 

 I’m on my own 

 I don’t go into solitary confinement in this world 

 Or fall into a label of society 

  I follow in my own deity 

 

 I’m not a clone  

I set my life in stone 

 Not the fire 

  though my burning desire I can’t atone 

 

There’s a hole in my heart 

 That I let no one fill 

 As time stands still 

 There’s trust somewhere 

 But I give it no time to kill 

 A Knife In My Scars 

 

That stabbed me within my own will 

Salt In My Wounds 

Tearing Me Inside Out 

Like a windmill 

 Fault in The Stars 

I’m falling down a mountain 

Not a Hill 

 

Now as I Finish 

This Is My Truth 

My Epitome 

 My Downfall of Gutting Clues 

I froze this over 

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Now I broke the ice            

This is goodbye to the new old me 

Now I’m going back to The Real Me 

 As I go back to the same light I used to be                                                                                                                                                                                                              Before all the terror and blasphemy 

                                                                        

 

This poem is about: 
Me
My community
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