When I was a child, they asked me,
What do you want to be when you grow up?
A question filled with good intensions
But really it conjured impossible accommodations
Accommodations of dreams that would never exist.
You see I was born into poverty, not the American poverty
Where anyone making under thirty thousand
Was labelled poor.
But poverty of the underdeveloped nation.
A poverty so deep that just to eat
Took miracles upon miracles
An abundance of miracles
Granted by my God all powerful
The one they said that didn't exist.
But one thing to remember is I did eat.
So I walked those miles to school and back in the boiling sun
Until the melanin and the sun turned my skin to a golden brown
In hopes of achieving the dream.
Growing up I always knew I had potential,
As my credentials portrayed with A’s in all grades
But until that teacher who will remain unnamed
Challenged me to be better than me,
I wouldn’t have risen above the tirades
Of my mind.
So I climbed the tree of achievement
Only to realize that I loved STEM.
The stems of achievement lead me to STEM
And my love for all things math and science was born.
I studied and I worked and he provided
The food and the books
And the fees and the shelter
And all that time I didn’t realize.
You see, he said in his word
With man this is impossible but with I
All things are possible.
So it made me realize he had a plan
So when I question
Why was I blessed
With the gift of knowledge and learning
When I can’t even put it to the test?
I’ll remember his ways are not mine and nothing is impossible
For the one most high
Who will see me through my needs.
I remember it like yesterday
My feet were tired from walking in heels
To and fro the stage
But I was appeased in collecting the numerous awards
From peers and teachers alike.
I made it, I did the impossible with God’s grace and mercy,
But the truth is I’m ashamed to say it.
You see when he was blessing me I didn’t remember him
When he was strengthening me I didn’t remember him still
But he was there right by my side
Like a pillar and rock being my guide.
Now I prepare to head to college
And the doubts and worries and impossibilities surround me
I’ll remember I’m not alone.
Therefore I won’t worry about tomorrow
for tomorrow will worry about itself.
Each day has enough trouble of its own.
But I will seek first his kingdom and righteousness
And all things will be given unto me as well.
Matthew six verses thirty-three to thirty-four.
And everyone if you’re wondering
What was my answer to the question they asked me
My name is Julie and I’ll become a doctor with God’s grace and mercy.