I think I finally realized what the true defintion of love is,
That it is something that can also be scary and terrifying, and is not just romantic and full of bliss.
That was what finally made me realize that I loved you,
It was when I couldn't let you go, no matter what you would say or do.
I realized that you were bad for me and that I needed to let you go,
But it was so hard because you were so good at putting on a show.
And everyone else believed it and thought that you were such a nice guy,
And I thought you were too, and I thought you were really sweet, and maybe even a little bit shy.
But it didn't take me too long to realize that there is a side to you that they don't know about,
And for so long I didn't want to believe it, but now I see it without a hint of doubt.
Just like every other guy before, you wanted to keep me around to keep feeding your ego because you're so vain,
And I am only good enough for you if there is something that you could gain.
And as much as it sucks, I realized that I can't let you go,
Because you are the only true love that I have ever known.
And I do want to let you go, but I don't know how,
And I don't think that there is anything else that I can do know.
Because no matter how hard I try, you are always on my mind,
And the image of your face in my head is taking up most of my time.
My day is filled with constant memories of you, and hoping that maybe we will run into each other,
But then I am snapped back into reality, and I am stuck wondering why I even bother.
Because I know that there is no hope for you and me,
But it sucks because my heart is locked, and you are the only one who has the key.
And I know that there will never be another who makes me feel the way that you did,
And it hurts because I fell in love when we were both just kids.
But that's how I know that I love you, because I know I need to let you go, but I can not,
Because I know we can't meet halfway, because this whole time, I was the only one who fought.
I know I need to stop wondering about our future together because it will never come true,
Because I can't stop thinking about you and everything that we have been through.
I realized that love is when you know you need to let someone go, but it's not that simple,
Because when I close my eyes, I still see that smile and your dimple.
I still feel you and all of those hugs you gave me,
But I am at the point where I need to be free.
It has been too long, three years to be exact,
And I am accepting that this time, there is no coming back,
You and me are officially done, and this time I don't think I will ever hear from you again,
And it sucks, because I love you, in so many ways more than just a friend.
And I know that I will be single forever, because I am still waiting for the impossible to come true,
Because at the end of the day, I want no one else, because the only person I will ever love is you.