Always being told that she was insensitive
Always being told she showed no emotion
But the truth is
she was just in a steeped sadness,
A long painful
Unbearable pain of losing someone
knowing how it felt to lose someone you cared for and Loved
Being just a young girl
she believed that it was just a way of life
Believing that life was all about heart breaks & pain
she thought she was all life had to offer
she was wrong
she spent her time looking at the world half blind
The first chance of love came to her
and she ran it down and tackled it
Believing she was in "Love" with him
after all they were still young
and who knows whether it could have been their last love
As she grew older she experienced many things
Her life was a roller coaster of heartbreaks and happiness
Love was never her game
Remembering the words mother had told her
You will hit rock bottom one day
Again and again you will suffer
Again and again You shall get back on your feet
Don't feel as if you've been defeated your spirit should not be destroyed
Her infatuation for him grew deeper and deeper
Believing Every small aspect of it that she would imagined
The unbounded fascination of the unbounded loneliness cover over her
Still looking at this world half blind
Unable to identify what " Love" really meant
Learning that she wasn't overcome by the situation
But it was all
In her imagination.
A Loveless life.
Especially because she had let him out of her mind, body and soul.
Erasing every aspect of him sounded easy to her.
Nights,past as well as days.
He was all that she could imagine.
His smell and touch would linder around her like a trapped fly,
or even a haunting memory.