Should I hold it all in...or should I cry it all out?
But I don't want to disappoint them,
I don't want to be given the doubt.
They think I'm strong.
They think I can do better.
But how can I?
I already fell so deeply into this mess,
I think, oftenly, that it's too late to try.
Now I have to wait three more years, including this one,
For a fresh new start, and hopefully, a permanent distraction...
The house is all empty now,
Maybe I should cry it all out.
Yet I don't want to,
Because, what if maybe, It's not worth crying over for?
I should erase It from my mind.
I should be happy.
And then maybe,
I could find a better It than It could ever be.