This Isn't Me

I DO THINGS FOR OTHER PEOPLE 

JUST TO MAKE THEM SMILE

OR LAUGH

BUT DEEP INSIDE I KNOW IM NOT HAPPY

I  PUT UP A FAKE SMILE ALMOST EVERYDAY

MY FAKE SMILE MAKES ME FEEL WEAK AND WEAKER 

I ALWAYS PUT IN MY HEAD NO ONE WANTS TO 

HEAR YOUR PROBLEMS

SO I GO TO MY BATHROOM 

LOOK MYSELF

IN THE FACE 

AND SEE WHAT A DISAPOINTMENT 

I AM TO MYSELF

I SEE HOW NOT PERFECT I AM

I PUT THE FAKE SMILE ON 

INFRONT OF THE MIRROR

I CRY AND THINK THATS WHAT EVERYONE LOOKS AT

WHEN STARING AT MYSELF

I WHIPE THE TEARS AWAY CLEAR MY FACE 

GO ON WITH MY DAY WITH THAT

FAKE SMILE ON MY FACE

 

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