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You said you didn't like lipstick
I didn't wear any
But I bit my lip
Until it was flushed deep red with blood
And tasted better
Than your satin skin ever did
 
You said you didn't like nail polish 
I didn't wear any 
But tore my fingers across my own skin 
Until they were pink and rough
And felt better 
Than your warm embrace ever did
 
You said you didn't like sneakers 
I didn't wear any 
But ran miles and miles to be with you 
Until my feet were throbbing 
And looked better 
Than your half-hearted smile ever did
 
You said you didn't like long sleeves 
I didn't wear any 
But instead let my skin get rigid 
Until it was cold and numb 
And yet still felt better 
Than anything 
You ever said
 
You said you didn't like
All these things about my surface
These filters 
And lenses
So thank you, darling
Because as I tore off
These filters 
And lenses
I only tore deeper 
To the indepence 
And self-love
That felt better than any love
You ever gave me
 
 
 
This poem is about: 
Me

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