I love you so much that I forgive every wrong thing you do. I don't question
you anymore. You remind me you love me but your actions sometimes
contradict your words. I love you that's why I don't stay mad at you.
I don't speak about our problems because my hands starts sweating,
my heart starts beating and my face starts blushing. I look at you and wonder
why I let this happen. I was young when I cried for you to stay. Now, I'm
questioning if it was the right thing to do. You're starting to lose me but I love you
that's why I need you. I don't want to lose you because I have been with you
all my life. You hurt me but you hurt my mother the most. You will never
lay your hand on me but your words hurt just the same. I beg for you to stop
drinking and start putting my mom first. You tell me you love me but I'm starting
to not believe it. I love you so much that I'm confused about my feelings.
You confuse me with your actions. I'm thankful for you but I wish you were better
just like you were when I was kid. Dad, I love you that's why I still need you. That's
why I don't want a man like you. I don't want a man to grow up and do what
you're doing now. I want a man who's opposite of who you are now. Don't
take it personal it's because I love you that I don't want to go through it
again. You taught me lessons that I will remember forever. I will always
love you dad after all, you gave me everything I could ask for.
You just slowly started to go against what I know. You're not an awful human.
Your mistakes are not putting me in danger. When your drunk you become
a dad that I don't know. You always apologize for what you do. I'm glad you don't
hurt me to the point where I hate you. I love you so much for the great thing
you taught me, gave me and do for me. I will forever be proud of you.
You are slowly accomplishing your dreams but you still are learning how
to be a great father and husband. I believe you will be amazing again.
So, it's okay because I love you.