i was never as strong as Them

She fought a long battle, where i could only last for a short time

He was brave and accepted treatment, i did not

They died with dignity as i hid in my room

silently sobbing

but never could i be as strong as Her

and never could i be as fearless as Him

my battle was in my mind

Theirs was in Their body

pain never stopped Them

me on the other hand, i could not bear it 

the sadness never faded

and always brought me down

and sometimes i wonder 

why that curse took over Their body

is that why they had to go

i miss them every day

sometimes wondering if i am the reason

there is constant tension

and sometimes i wonder what it would be like

if they were still here