A Gentle Hold on the Past
Swirling, swaying, spinning in time to the blaring music
I close my eyes
When they open, I’m a little girl
“Dad, I don’t dance. I don’t know how to”
He extends his hand to my mom, she takes it
They playfully dance to an upbeat, imaginary song
Laughter and smiles make the room glow
“Come on, now you try” encouraging me with a smile
I stand on his feet, giggling as he dances me around the room
Eyes closed, I give him a huge hug
“Will you please make snowflakes with me?”
Paper and two pairs of scissors are set on the table
Mom makes crisp folds to the paper then she begins to cut
Watching in amazement as a simple paper becomes a beautiful snowflake
She smiles at me as I try to cut mine just like hers
They hang from the ceiling along with the others
Snowflakes are cold but to me they bring back warm feelings
When I close my eyes I can still imagine them
“Fox and hound! Can we please play fox and hound?”
Snowsuits come out of the closet, we put them on
My grandma and I drag our feet in the cold, brilliant snow
Once all of the trails connect, we start playing
I’m the fox, she’s the hound
Reminding myself to stay on the trails, I run as she chases me
When the snow is full of footprints and the cold nips a little too hard
Inside we go
My grandpa makes hot cocoa while we get rid of the wet clothes
We watch a movie, I drift off to sleep in my grandma’s arms
“We’re going today?” I ask with excitement
My grandpa nods his head as he packs the equipment
“Bring home dinner!” my grandma calls with a laugh
I swing my legs as we drive to the fishing spot
After what feels like an eternity, we arrive
Water shimmers blue as a sapphire
Not a cloud to be seen in the forget me not blue sky
With bait on my hook, I cast
Bluegill after bluegill, I can’t help but feel pride
A huge grin on his face, my grandpa is proud too
We head home when the sun begins to set
Exhausted from the excitement, I collapse on the couch closing my eyes
Once more, my eyes open
This time, I’m not so little
I smile at my dad as we dance
We move in time to the waltz
No one knows how lost in thought we are
A bittersweet recall of how things used to be
Nothing more than happy memories