Fear?

Tap, tap, tap

Or rather, thud, thud, thud

Lub-dub, lub-dub

The throbbing beat in my chest

Uncontrollably echoing the chime of the unknown

Reminding me of what I have to lose

Forgetting all the times I faced my distress and won—

Fear—

Perplexing my mind

Syncing with my shaking leg

Sweating out my anxieties like a runner on a hot day

But do they ever really disappear?—

Fear—

Head spinning, mind racing

Stumbling legs, flailing arms

Dizzy…

And then all is black—

Fear—

Colors swarm again

My leg is still

Perspiration lies on my forehead

But more fails to escape my pores—

Fear?—

Hiding, waiting to come and attack again?

No

Sitting here afraid of fear

Fear is also afraid of me—

Fear?—

When I win, it disappears

Nobody to torture

Return, it cannot

Conquered

This poem is about: 
Me

Comments

Grant-Grey Porter Hawk Guda

Powerful expression. Always let poetry fill your life. 

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