Don’t let them in,
don’t let them see,
keep them all at arms’ length.
We live in a society
where hating ourselves
is less acceptable
then hating others.
I cannot be who I truly am.
I cannot be me.
For being me
is seen as being a quitter.
is seen as being weak.
Crying is pathetic.
Panic attacks are stupid.
If you are not in sports,
on a club board,
actively participating in school events,
and have below an acceptable GPA,
you have no chance.
Because you don’t have enough.
but not quite.
“Do it for the vine?”
More like “do it for the college app.”
Always do it for the college app.
Make sure your essays are perfect.
Because they don’t want to hear you,
they don’t care about how you,
overcame your depression by yourself.
Stopped suicidal thoughts by yourself.
They don’t care
how you went above and beyond to take care of yourself.
They want to know if you fit the mold.
The predetermined form.
If your essay is the same clone of everyone else.
If your grades are just like everyone else.
They will judge you
based of what is on the outside.
The inside, the inside isn’t cared about.
It is all about appearance.
Society doesn’t give a damn
if you beat your personal demons.
We are not looked farther then our appearance and our resume.
Keep it in.
Keep yourself safe.
Fake the smile,
because no one cares
if you can’t breathe.
If you look the part and act the part,
you get the part.
Society doesn’t care how you feel.
Society doesn’t have time for the non 1%.
You have to perfect.
You have to be enough.
because you will be the only one who loves you