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I have ADHD
And ADD
And OCD
And a,b,c,d,e,f,g,h,I,j,k,l,m,n,o,p,o,p,o,p,
Oh my God I'm doing it again,
That was so fun!
Let's try it again backwards.
Maybe,
Just maybe,
I'll remember it 
the first time,
Because last time
The world said I was mentally disabled.
Am I disabled?
An I disabled?
Am I disabled because I'm not able to be stable sitting at the labeled table.
Oooooohhhhhjh that rhymed.
Am I bipolar to?
Or am I just funny? Because everybody else is laughing. 
HAHAHAHAHA HILARIOUS.
Laughing because mom was in the hospital
And I forgot to take my medicine.
I've had all kinds of medication,
Antidepressants, 
anti anxiety medication, 
Ritalin, 
straterra, 
vyvance, 
concerta, 
adderall, 
add em all up, 
60 milligrams
Used to be
80 milligrams.
I'm hungry!
I haven't ate ALL day!
Can we go to McDonald's?
I want a large sprite
And a bigmack
Bigmack
Bigmack
Big stack of prescriptions that aren't telling me 
the side effects are worse 
than the disorder. 
OH MY GOD!!! SHE IS CUTE. 
Sometimes I shout 
the most obvious things,
Sometimes I can't sit still,
Sometimes I daydream,
Sometimes I,
Sometimes I,
All the time they give me pills
Filled with the daily routine of 
not eating
Not sleeping,
Not talking,
No distractions what so ever.
And everyday I'm faced with the decision
Of taking these pills,
Small capsules injected with who knows what,
And shoving them down my throat.
It's like
It's like
It's like
"My mind is telling me no. 
But by mommy, my mommy is telling me yes" and so are my doctors,
Brothers, 
Sisters, 
Family,
Friends,
And I'm crazy because
I'd rather let my mind temple run through time
Back to 99
When I became a statistic.
Back when I was 
1 in every 4 boys taking medicine every morning.
But now.
Now,
The medicines we take are
Nationally classified with cocaine and meth.
Now,
2.7 million children like me take mind altering drugs
Every morning.
Now, 
Straterra and antidepressants
Are linked to thoughts of death,
0 to 5 year olds 
taking these medicines 
could fill 6 football stadiums,
1 out of every 5 high school boys are diagnosed with ADHD 
And 67% of them take medication,
Medication,
Medication.
Are we there yet?
I like that movie!
The acting was 
Flawless. 
His daughter was.
Ok ok, stay on task.
I know I have alot of disorders,
Yes, I do.
But I'm still taking 
AP and IB classes.
I'm on honor roll again.
I can control my adhd,
I write poetry
Poetry
Poetry
baby,
Courtesy of disorders,
Courtesy of statistics,
Compliments of months alone sitting in my bedroom
Thinking of ways to be normal,
Because apparently.
I'm mentally disabled.

Comments

francescakortesmaki

Hi, this francesca kortesmaki. you dont know me but i was wondering if you could maybe check out my poem and maybe give some feedback. I as well have a very severe case of OCD and I see we are in similiar boats. my poem is called Barley breathing;
Fighting for freedom from myself
OCD

chrisloos

of course I will man, let me find it really quick.

Way2Fortnite

Great poem

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