A Castle Called Love
I lived in a castle once,
It was called love.
The walls were built
So high,
So that I wouldn't
Lose any of the
Riches within.
As long as I was inside,
Everything was at
My fingertips.
Expensive wine
Ridded me of thirst,
Elaborate dinners
Made me forget of hunger.
But something was wrong.
Maybe it wasn't enough for me,
Or maybe it was too much,
But I ventured beyond
That castle,
That castle called love.
The one that had protected me
From the dangers of the outside,
Now seemed like a danger itself.
Its years of craftsmanship
Made it strong enough
To withstand anything.
But could it withstand
The tornado that it had formed
In my own soul?
Had I been locked up,
With too much at
My disposal,
For too long?
At last I decided,
I didn't deserve this.
So I flung open the front door
And ran.
I ran until I could no longer
See through the
Beads of sweat that ran
Down my perfectly
Made-up face.
I ran until my dress
Was torn into shards
And clung to my body lifelessly.
I ran until
My skin was
Bruised and cut,
Scarred and bleeding,
More than I ever thought was possible.
I ran until
My castle called love
Was no longer visible
On my horizon.
I stood there
Admiring the scenery
Far away from
My castle called love.
It was beautiful.
Nothing I could ever imagine.
But I began to hunger
And thirst for love.
And I thought,
At that time,
That it was only obtainable
In my castle of love.
Slowly, I retreated,
Cursing myself for thinking
I could live,
And love,
On my own,
Without depending on
My so-called "castle of love".
I wanted to be in the wilderness,
I wanted to live free,
And then,
Most of all,
I wanted to come back and destroy
That castle called love.
But when I reached
My castle called love,
I realized it had destroyed itself.
It no longer looked
Like a home,
The one I lived in my
Whole, dreadful life.
In this short time I was gone,
Vines engulfed the walls,
The ones that were already
Faded and fallen,
Because the legend-old
Mortar, that held together
My dear castle called love,
Had crumbled.
But at that moment I realized that
It was for the best,
And I smiled,
Truly smiled,
For probably the first time in my life.
Because I realized something
That has changed,
And shaped my life,
For the better,
For the best, even.
What is love,
if I've never felt hate?
What is full,
If I've never felt empty?
What were all of these riches,
If I never,
Until these past hour,
Knew what poor was?
If I stayed inside,
My castle called love,
I wouldn't have known the difference
Between want and need.
I would've never known
The feeling of being independent,
And relying on no one but yourself.
If I stayed inside,
I would have waited for
A prince to show up,
At my door,
Telling me he's here to save me.
Well, too bad Romeo,
The princess saves herself
In this one.