I don’t know why I panic so much
My head gets heavy and I just feel crushed
Tons of pounds fall on me, as I fall down
Desperately trying to hold up, but I just hit the ground.
With a thud. It hurts.
I’m on my knees, I beg for help
Don’t receive it so I hurt myself
And it hurts but it’s true, cause I’m feeling alive
And I know that life’s not a lie
It’s hell. I know.
But what can you do, when your life doesn’t seem yours
And you push away the things that are close to you.
I’m alone in my room and the only thing I think about is when you were here with me
Our limited time, and everything we could have been
Could have. You left.
And they came back
I decided to end it, you said “ok”
But it wasn’t ok, I am not fine
That is because my love wasn’t a lie.
As naïve as it can sound,
My love for you is a solid ground.
I had given you my heart to protect it
Promised you I wouldn’t hurt myself, but now you are not here
And the bitch is back and I can’t give my heart to anyone else
It’s still yours, but you’re no more mine.
First love innocence is not worth a dime.