I'm sick

I'm out of my head

I love this boy,
and I want to show him,
but I hurt him instead

I can't take this,
can't make this,
can't fake this,
I'm no good at relationships

You want to stay,
I tell you to go,
and then I say no,
but then I say please,
I want you to leave

I don't even know what
I want anymore

I'm not doing this on purpose,
my life has no purpose,
I'm such a romantic,
but I tend to panic,

When you're near me,
and you touch me,
and you open your mouth
to say that you love me,

Don't know what to do,
I have so many issues

Like trust,
and commitment,

Don't know how to show
that I love you,
and I could be different

Could change for you,
would change for you,
just give me a chance and
I'd try not to break you