Beautiful Flower Within a Realm of Weeds

Sat, 01/18/2014 - 21:22 -- ashakie

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Raped, beaten, yelled at, threatened

I still keep my head up high

Ditched, cursed, bullied, shunned

I still say good morning every time you walk by

I am a strong woman

 

Big foot, nigger, mrs piggy, shrek

Names I’ve been called

Fat, disgusting, worthless, ugly

Adjectives given to me

I am a strong woman

 

Figuring out how to survive

Having nobody but myself

Struggling to make ends meet

Reading every single book on my shelf

I am a strong woman

 

Used, abused, tricked, loved

All things of my past

Alone, depressed, a father, a community

All are a part of my past as well

I am a strong woman.

 

When I was raped, or beaten, or threatened

It hurt

It hurt a lot

But there are some things that hurt even worse

I repeat, I am a strong woman

 

Abandoned by my mother I was

She left to help my brother

But I survived and I love her

I almost committed suicide that year

I am a strong woman

 

When a father takes care of a baby

Its beautiful, a moment to treasure

When a father gets to know its child until their 14

It’s a record where I come from

It shouldn’t be

I am a strong woman

 

To be abandoned by your father

Sounds like “the norm” right?

He left the same year mom left

He moved 10 minutes away and never came back

Not even a phone call

I am a strong woman

 

HE said he’s going to kill me

He said HED ALWAYS BE THERE FOR ME!

He threatened to kill the one dearest to my heart

My dad also threatened to kill my mother

I am a strong woman

 

People like me end up in jail

People like me end up dead

People like me end up in a mental institute

I graduated Umass with a 3.5 gpa

I am a strong woman

 

I ended up taking the abuse for 19 years

 I ended up working 3 jobs sophomore year

I finally stopped the abuse

I finally decided that if I were to die, it would be helping another

I am a strong woman

 

I want to help others see the light,

I want them to know that we choose our own destiny

No matter where we live, the color of our skin,

What gang were from, or the clique we lie within

Whatever it takes, I WILL stop this

Because I am a strong woman.

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