To my anonymous adolescent,
I’m sorry.
Sorry for suppressing your existence and never giving you the chance to clock in and serve your time here on this earth.
Sorry that I felt as though you were a burden on my shoulders, instead of a blessing in disguise.
Sorry that I defaced your future before it was ever proposed in your honor.
I know that you may bear a grudge against me and you may be resentful by the way I assassinated your whole being.
Maybe even disrespected that I didn’t give you the fighting chance to make a huge reconstruction of this nation, of this world.
I’m sorry that for the time that you were here, I never once thought of you as the next American
Ambassador or the person to end World Hunger, but as a gremlin, a demon, a curse that was caste upon me because of my mistake of not being responsible enough to know what is right.
By throwing you away, I realize now that I threw part of myself away as well, a part of me that I will never get back.
And for this I will forever remain SORRY.
Sorry that you will never know the family you were supposed to belong to.
Sorry that mama and daddy weren’t ready to breathe air into your tender lungs and bestow you with all the amenities that were supposed to be promised to you.
Sorry that you never got the chance to hear the words “I Love You” or feel the warm embrace of Mommy & Daddy’s hugs and kisses.
Sorry that you will never know how it feels to experience walking this earth with your head held high and not allowing anyone to bring you down.
This is my apology letter to the person that trusted and loved me before getting the chance to meet me.
I often wondered what you would look like, if you would have your daddy’s eyes and your mommy’s skin color, if you would be “Daddy’s Little Girl” or “Mama’s Baby Boy”.
There’s so much more I could apologize for, but for now, all I can really say is that I’M SORRY.