Was that stupid?
Was that bitchy?
Am I crazy?
Should I have not said that?
I wonder who’s still thinking about it.
I don’t think I should’ve said that.
That was kind of rude.
But it was the truth!
I was just being honest.
Honesty is good.
It’s a good quality to have!
That means they can trust me.
So that’s good.
But they probably don’t care if they can trust me.
‘Cause that was weird.
I made them feel uncomfortable.
Is my face getting red?
Oh look, I’m starting to get hives again!
It’s so warm in here.
But I hate this top;
My fat roles need to be monitored in it.
I guess I’ll keep my coat on.
I mean, I guess it depends.
What did I eat today?
I should write this down.
Cereal... a banana…
A salad… a slice of pizza…
An apple… some peanut butter…
Some chocolate cake…
Can’t take the coat off.
It’s bad enough that my legs are fat.
I wonder if they think I’m fat, too.
Maybe that’s what makes me weird.
No, I just yelled that thing.
That was so stupid.
When is this gonna be over?
Thank God, I’m going home tomorrow!
I don’t want to be here anymore.
I’m ready for summer.
I can’t wait to drive my car;
With my sunroof open;
And the music blasting!
That’ll be nice.
I definitely want to make time to read that book, too.
The Power of Now.
I definitely want to read it.
Apparently it will help with my anxiety.
I really do need help.
I just can’t make the time to see someone.
Especially since I’m so damn busy with this crap.
Maybe the book will make me better;
As “better” as I possibly could be,
You can’t fix this.
I don’t know why my parents don’t understand that.
I don’t know why they can’t just support me.
And help me.
All I want is to think happy thoughts.
But everything makes me so angry.
God, I can be such a bitch.
That really was bitchy what I said.
It was honesty.
Honesty is good.
No one’s even thinking about it anymore.
I really gotta stop this.
Good thoughts, Alexis,